I am the Host

I am. A fool. For the longest time I thought Susie was shocked at Ralsei's face reveal in chapter 1 because she thought he looked like Asriel. But the chapter 4 she doesn't know who Asriel is and it only. Just now hit me. She fucking thought he looks like TORIEL. That's why she's thrown off!!

Once again I am so charmed by flowery and his desire to LIVE. he doesnt just speak, he gave himself a voice that he knows can be heard beyond the bounds of the game. He wants to do anything and be anything that will make the people he loves happy. He's flowery! He's the big brother and the mentor and the best friend! He is defined by the way he wants others to view him and he can't seem to imagine a version of himself that isn't alone. He's just soooo!!!!!

Unfortunately I really do love flowery. He's so sincere and annoying and slightly naive aruughh

Something something the freedom motif being the most prevalent in jevil and spamton's themes, one of them literally locked away and thr other clawing to heaven in desperation to not be a puppet. And it being much fainter in Gerson and Pink's themes, Gerson having long made peace with his life and letting Susie give Alvin the resolution that hr wished he could have given him while Pink/Maddie finds true joy and happiness coexisting in a body that feels like HER. aaurghh

Actually I haven't stopped thinking about how much Stampede endeared me to Brad specifically. He went from nothingburger ""romantic"" rival in 98 who died and did nothing for me to guy i found okay and tolerable in Maximum, to like. Holy shit that's Vash's weird dad!!! I find his relationship with Vash in Stampede so!!!! Interesting. He hurt and dehumanized Vash. He was scared of him. He grew from that. THATS HIS KID!!! I wish they had more scenes but literally just from the one of him fixing Vash's arm there's such a sense of shared history. They've been through that song and dance. He taught that boy how to ride a thoma. Idk something about having *human* characters that are older than 150 year old Vash is so. Cool to me.

I keep losing my mind over NAPSTABLOOK being the least miserable ghost in that house such that they're the one that has to get a job. Like yeah theyre generally kind of a downer but theyre also not drowning in dysphoria like mtt and Maddie at the beginning of the game so they just kinda have to. Persevere.

Love when toby voices one of the little freaks in his game, its always some weird bullshit