Sep 1, 2020
Today was a rough day.
I saw a picture of you doting on him. It made my toes curl. I wish it was me, I wish we were still in each others lives.
I noticed you unblocked me on your social media. I guess that’s a step in a positive direction.
I wish I just kept my cool so it didn’t have to come to this.
I feel like i spent so much energy towards you. And now I have all of this negativity in my head that’s directly leading me to want to permanently escape.
I’m not so special. I’ve always felt this way about myself. It’s never serious, it’s never intense, it’s always just a shrug.
I miss you so fucking much. I heard your laugh in my head and it made me cry.
