alastair

just a second blog what do you want from me? read my carrds

giggling n kicking my feet rn i’m so in love ffs

ok i swear there used to be a wiki that was lgbta.wikia.com and i used to be extremely loyal to it and went on it like every day creating a massive xenogender hoard but now it’s gone and it keeps redirecting me to an entirely different wiki. it had the mogai symbol thingy as it’s site icon thing but i can’t rlly say anymore abt it bc i forgor soz it was like 2/3 years ago :/

As a Bisexual of the Blade, I would like to declare war on the Longsword Lesbians and Gravity Knife Gays. I mean, they don't support m-spec identites or PNC vincians/sapphics so how about we make it a thing of ours to support PNC people too? Also non-binary vincians and sapphics! Basically I'm saying declare war on more bad people to support the good people.

Sometimes I feel like the community changes the poplular thing based on my specific hyperfixations but then I just realize 1. It’s the other way around and 2. I’m just on that part of the internet but even though I know that’s true I don’t like to think that because it makes me feel like I have more worth.  I’m not upset when my posts don’t get likes, people have interests and standards, and besides, the internet is a big place, the people who like my posts just didn’t find them yet. I’m more of a glass-half-full kinda person than I thought.

Last night I legitimately scared myself. I was doing the dishes and then accidentally grabbed a sharp knife from the blade thinking it was a butter knife. I then proceeded to put it closer and closer to my finger tip, constantly telling myself to stop. Eventually I did. I thought after that I didn’t want to do it for the pain, I just wanted to see the blood. It occurred to me how crazy that is and how maybe more was wrong with me than I initially thought.