mahal kong Sol, ako si Luna.

It's been so long now since I updated about Sol. She's leaving in about 2 weeks. Im already heart broken by just thinking of it. She's migrating to US and i wont be able to see her face and hear her voice anymore. Im already grieving by just knowing my time with her is now being counted like sands in hourglass. Asking her to go out feels like an impossible wish when i know she doesnt even want to. I told her how i truely feel and she laughs it off . I am fully decided by not going to her farewell party i told her i wanted to see her but not in that way. I dont want to lose her only if i can do something about it i would. I would give anything just to be with her pero di ko ipipilit. Jen, mahal pa rin kita magdadalawang taon na ngayon na palayo ka na, matatapos na ung ugnayan natin sa ayaw at sa gusto ko. Ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam.

I hate you for making me feel this way

All right let me tell you how our day went by . Nagchat ka sakin ng tanghali , sabi mo bumili ka na ng sapatos because you are freaking impulsive. Anyway since nauna akong pumasok sayo, kapag dating mo andun na ako sabi mo binilan mo ako ng coffee. You buying me coffee is sweet and you know my coffee order.i liked that . You bought me Americano with no nothing at all. You showed me your shoes and that Wala ung color na gusto ko na light blue kase mahirap hanapin.. I liked that you considered my I chose sadyang di lang available. Anyway tulad ng kahapon, all we did was to laugh and talk about stupid things and gosh sobrang kulet mo at tawa ka ng tawa sa lahat ng bagay . Tapos Ikaw na ung nagsasabi na " do you have food? Can you bring food?" Gosh kapag iihi ka lang sasama ako kase wala kang badge . Ung locker ko nga, Ikaw na may gamit eh do you know how much you trust me? You are willing to give me they key of your locker and get money sa pitaka mo . Anyway, so kakain Tayo sa labas ng tayong dalawa lang and treat mo! ☺️ Una samg pero nagbago na ramen nalang tapos naging kwe kwek tapos ayaw mo maglakad kaya sumakay Tayo at kung Anong Makita nating kainan along the way, dun nalang Tayo kakain Hanggang sa nakaabot na Tayo sa dapat bababaan mo tapos bumaba Tayo ilang kanto pa lagpas sa stop mo pumunta Tayo ng Makati naglakad lakad. Gusto mo ng angels burger and we bought ung buy 1 take 1 habang nag kkwento ka kung gaano mo ka fav ung angels burger at wala non sa inyo . Akala ko uuwi na Tayo but sabi mo maglakad lakad pa Tayo Hanggang nakakita ka ng Tokyo Tokyo and you ordered ramen and you ordered for me. Alam mong mahilig ako sa spicy so Ang binili mo sakin ay spicy ramen haha. I wanna tell you na Hindi ko gusto tokyo Tokyo but I don't wanna ruin the moment.. Then nag kwento ka ng tungkol sa buhay mo and things na mga naiisip mo things na Hindi mo nakkwento sa iba . Habang ako nakikinig lang at pinagmamasdan ka . For more than an hour nandun lang Tayo nagkkwnetuhan . I like it when you sense na Hindi ako nagsasalita na, you always ask Anong iniisip ko. Tapos malungkot na ako kasi uuwi na tayo. Then you asked me to rate you from 1 to 10 sa tingin ko gaano mo pa mag stay sa work and I answered 7.3 and i had my reasons and thats where we started a real conversation. I told you na I I thought you're doing somehow fine kase di mo na nababanggit ung resignation and such and that your workload is not that heavy anymore and you said that Ang iniisip kase Sayo kung gusto mo mag resign you can kase money is not an issue Sayo Hanggang sa nag kwento ka ng nag kwento ulit. Until ako na ung magsasalita. Sinabi ko Sayo ung observation ko Sayo . That you somehow feel offended and or uncomfortable kapag sinasabihan ka ng privileged ka na nagawa mo ung mga bagay na di nagagawa ng karamihan at that sinusubukan mong makarelate sa karamihan tuwing nag kkwento Sila pero di na nakakarelate. You asked me kung trying hard ba, and I say yes. And you laugh and that you're holding back sa mga kinukwneto mo and that you're always trying to find words na makakapag describe sa gusto mong Sabihin kaya nahihirapan ka and I aced all of it. Nagulat ka kase na o-obserbahan ko Pala lahat ng mga maliliit na bagay na un. Ang ending, nag kwento ka ulit tapos ako, tawa lang ng tawa kase mas lalo ka lang naging open sakin. Sabi mo pa Nung nasa jeep Tayo na iba ung relationship na Meron Tayo kesa sa mga ka team natin. And I don't wanna forget this but I was able to touch and hold your hand . Anyway. Masaya ako na natuloy ung date natin today sobra. Para sakin, late birthday celebration to na tayong dalawa lang. And oh we hugged before we part ways. I'm so happy today you don't even know. Tuwing nakatingin ako Sayo, I'm acting normal but I want to badly kiss you and hold your hand and not let go of it. I want to spend the whole day with you but I don't want it to be obvious . I love that sobrang komportable ka na sabihin sakin lahat ng walang filter na di mo masasabi sa iba . Iloveyou 🤟