Aisha's Book World

Hudson: “What’s always been something that’s frustrated me, not even with like other men, but also just there’s a lot of taboos around exploring physical intimacy with people you admire and love without people, especially in Western culture, being like, ‘Oh, they’re fucking, they’re doing this.’ I just was always frustrated by these kinds of notions. Especially with Connor, who I love dearly, it was something I was always kind of adamant that no matter what people think or want to infer, I’m always going to just physically express my love. I feel like if you’re still biased or jaded or uncomfortable with expressing physical love for people in 2025, you got to f*ing, just, you know, get over yourself.”

Anyway I did it.

Puppies and some quick fanart for The Long Game

So he's 19, living in a space managed by his mom. She probably has a key and not a lot of boundaries. And there's this hot sexy Russian begging to fuck him. For two years. And nothing really changes in those two years with his mom or his apartment (especially in the show -- show Shane is way more passive and managed by his mom than book Shane is, I think) and he wants to get railed so badly but there's no way he can relax enough for it to happen here. Where his whole team knows he lives, and the doorman knows he never brings anyone back, and his parents walk on with barely a five minute head's up (because Im so sorry, ilu David, but if you're still doing it at the cottage when Shane is 25 when you could just go buy a new charger for why the fuck do you only have one charger anyway that is crazy work, they are definitely doing it when Shane is 19, 20, 21).

So he buys a building. Maybe it's his first truly independent move that his parents have no say or knowledge of. He spends months researching neighborhoods and property values and his Google search is a mix of 'how to flip an apartment rental' and 'mixed commerical and residential zones montreal' and 'how to prepare for anal sex - men' (the last one is done in an incognito browser, on a laptop he bought specifically for that type of search, and from which he then deletes his internet history) and eventually buys a moderately sized building that's zoned commerical on the ground floor and has room for two loft apartments. It's in a decent part of Montreal, where he could get a reasonable rent from people and not feel gross about exploiting them. It needs work, but he's kind of excited about that.

And his parents have no idea about it. It's private, secure, and his.

I don’t know why I am the way I am

Please Stay - Blue Jean by Hazlett

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