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i do have one problem tho... some engenes are kinda taking the toxic route no pls can we not do that... i saw post saying it should have been bang chan... lk spamming yeonjun live... harassing this producer for answers, blaming him...ik there's more but the one with the comparison especially with bts... the feeling if jungkook leaves bts... honestly this one doesn't even give toxic it's just how it is... i don't get the aggression from army, aren't they all under the same company, company brothers, i saw a fan say they have no connection with one another... IDOLS UNDER THE SAME SHITTY COMPANY... does that not ring a bell... But the whole bycotting bts comeback or enhypen on a whole I think it's toxic I think it's not gonna help the situation... The whole spamming for help if they wanna they would, if they don't wanna then move on, don't rage bait just move on... cause the things armies are saying is just too much for me either get the situation or ignore but u can't even ignore it cause it's so big... it's a BIG deal to engenes. so can we change unity would be nice this would show just how much fans can make a change in the industry instead of just taking everything companies feeds us...

Sigh I was really hoping to watch eno'clock this week cafe eps a first with Niki, now we'll never get that content... Highly disappointed that they are just dismissing everything surrounding him... I really can't stop thinking about it, so much that it's stressing me out why why am I so stressed out, my eczema is traveling to places it's never been. I got classes, I got assignments, my shitty job, and I am so lost, I can't listen to Kpop idk hope to cope rnw...

I'm sorry just brain dumping

Through all the hard times and the soft time, he have supported a group of seven chaotic men with so much patience, warmth and quite strength.

Watching him grow from someone anxious and unsure of himself into a confident leader, performer, and person has been such an inspiration.

Seeing more of his honest side during the Vanish comeback, how relatable he is beyond what we see on the surface is so touching. Cause like how often can you say you truly understand (certain aspects) and connect with your idol like that??? And as I dive deeper and deeper into the group I've seen just how hardworking they are as a team.

Honestly, I don't even have the right word rnw...

Gonna tear up just thinking about it. But I hope Jungwonnie knows how loved and appreciated he is.

Our soft and precious leadernim thank you for all your hard work, your smile and the energy you bring to so many of us.

I hope this year brings him happiness, alot of rest (for once please... Hybe give then a real break), endless success and all the warmth in the world.

Happy birthday, Jungwonnie. Please keep shining, and may your light never dim...we’ll always be cheering for you. 🤍

Sigh I had whole day to post this and it after 12 now and it's still not up yet...😭😭 Our precious cat leader Jungwonnie is 22 now... This is like my favorite Pic of Jungwon like that performance, I always forget how much of an amazing dancer he is until they give him the spotlight...

Proud to say I never read any ff till today and I caught myself before I can even read... I was like

Wait are there member younger than Taki???

Lemme check just incase

Taki is maknae right???

I was in DENIAL this WHOLE time!!!! I'm SCREAMJNF

Even when I saw him as the last member to be introduced in their &team club videos... 😭😭😭 Idk what I thought but I didn't know he was maknae... I hk feel awful for being such a freaking simp for his dimples...

Respectfully he's just so ughhhh. He's one of the Japanese guys I'm obsessed with respectfully respectfully tho.

Bro sigh... Leave me in the corner I'm bout to cry 😔 like fr... 05 liners is my limit and even then its weird lk. But like mostly I'm screaming and covering my eye anytime I see anything related to young idol cause, I not the audience they need to sell that dream to... Even when they say they are all for the noonas (Niki and Martin??? I'm look at u)... But anyway I good with looking at a distance. 😭 A good distance smh.. nicho is enough for me frfr...

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FELIX FROM STRAY KIDS. Idk what about him but like other that the idol factors, it's his energy, how he portrays himself to fan is just sooooooo ugh.... Not obsession but I don't think that I'll ever stop being a fan of his. I haven't supported a stray kids comeback since chk chk boom, but like listening to them now and seeing how his voice is being added alot more often as it was before... I'm just screaming is that Felix voice, I'm just happy he has more lines (this is just me don't kill me im not die hard stay but a softie and I'm ot8 I like all of the I swear) that they are able to use his voice more in songs. I really do like all the members but Felix just hit me different.

Is it just like the idol world itself cause like maybe what they show us is not really who they are, or maybe their holding back their real personality. And most of us understands the idea of this but also, it makes u think that only as a fan ull be able to find guys like this. Like when or where am I gonna find my Yongbok, my Christopher, my Yeonjun, my Yoongi, my Sunghoon, my Jake, my Mark Lee, my Eric Nam, my Key like frfr does guys like them even exist or were they just made or created to feed us a fantasy of what we can never have. Cause I kinda need a sunshine in my life or a loud introvert just saying... I saw a post somewhere that said if ur bias is Felix, Seonghwa and a couple other I can't remember but ur either gay, bi, bi curious, queer? or non binary... THOUGHTS????

Watching iland as an engene in this day and age is soooo hard... It's not easy at all... Every episode aches my freaking heart... Was there even a episode that I didn't see Heeseung cry???

But atleast the others for the producer vote understands talent cause it sounds like Rain just wanted my bias out... 😭😭 To image if he was sent to the ground... 😭😭 He would have came back to the iland, he's talented, and handsome...

Sooo yes I'm watching iland over and mannnnn... I try to watch it must nights but the crying gets to me sometimes and other times my eyes just can stay open.

I love how in the semifinals??? The producers really compliment the now enhypen members, like my boys being praised, yes they deserved it...

Was it kyungmin??? Who Heeseung said needed to be more confident when dancing, bro cause a 360 mess but I really hope he's moved from being insecure about his talent cause he is talented... Sigh I hate when the talents are insecure but going up against people like Heeseung and K and the others probably was so tough on his self-esteem... He was determined to get a good part tho and even I was sad when he got a small role... He hit a Jay but not even Jay was successful in that but, I was so happy to see him be brave and wanting to show his talent. It probably wasn't even kyungmin but I know it was one of the mins but not Jimin...

K receiving such a low mark for that semi final?? performance had me questioning tho but I must say after every challenge and evaluation he really did improve...

I feel like if someone else had performed first in the intro / opening, things would have gone different for Seon... the glazing was real like he trained for so long he's their hyung, but I feel like he needed to experience the pain and desperation of being a grounder way earlier in the show.... I just think he needed more character development and going to the ground would have change alot of things for him and maybe he would have shown that growth everyone wanted from him...

I'm just happy most of the eliminated ilanders were still about to make it in the industry in their own way... The show is so traumatizing to watch, the constant fear they probably felt not knowing if they'll go to the ground or not every single week without break is stressful...

Niki was going through it in the ground.... It either that or the air cause he was breaking out... I still can't believe that one bad decision to prove himself had him in the ground for half of the show. I mean when he wasn't feeling pressured and even then he did really really good down there, the ground really built his character but also pushed him down alot, he went from being so confident in himself and his choices to unsure of what to do next...

I have so much to say but I think in should stop.

For now expecially when. It comes to Niki.

I'm not hating I swear but.... RAIN when I see u Rain when i see u rain when i see u rain... That's all I'm gonna say 🤣🤣 the beef is real lol.