saw my cat friends twice today :) yay :)

they’re adding another psych med 🙃 good news though i was able to get a tilt table test scheduled for october

sharp pain in my left leg whenever i put any amount of weight on it and i’m worried my daily really light-sensitive headaches are coming back because the pain has started to spike / lower as i move within a room based on how much light is reaching me (this was one of the most disabling symptoms of this time last year bc it got to the point where almost any light was painful & not just large amounts)

i was supposed to sing tonight because nobody else signed up but i showed a friend the song i always have as a back-up and she was like ‘my honest opinion is that i don’t like that song’ so long story short i’m not singing tonight

i’m trying to figure out what i want people to call me in college and i feel a lot of pressure to choose a more “gender-neutral” name and i really love the name theo but i’m simultaneously scared that 1) people will think it’s silly that i’m going by a pretty masculine name while still identifying as non-binary and 2) people will just not call me that (my parents know but don’t & my mom has said she doesn’t know if it fits me)

last kids’ show of the summer tonight <3 i am so relieved & exhausted and hopefully now i’ll have brain space to think about things i enjoy besides rehearsal again