✧~Agent_Germany~✧

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WARNING!! there will be mentions of self-harm aggression past trauma and stress-induced hallucinations also this will be an angst to so please don't read this if you're sensitive to topics like that! Also S/n = State name

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Your pov

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You had just gotten back from a mission that had caused you and South to both drop in rank and she absolutely raged as normal whenever she dropped in rank.

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Unlike normal though a few hours later you went to check on her and found that she'd been drinking and was now pushing herself way to hard in the training arena so you had to tell F.I.L.S.S. to stop the training program and went down to talk to South and calm her down since she was your girlfriend.

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Once you go down there and she see's it's you who stopped the training program she snatches her helmet off and throws it twords you and you have to move to the side so it doesn't hit you and when you look back to her, her eyes are blazing with furry as she storms twords you and gets up in your face and starts yelling at you "Why the hell did you stop it!?" You have to step back already, a bit put off by the sudden closeness and yelling right in your face as you try to speak "I'm not gonna let you get yourself hurt because of the leader board South" she gets even more pissed at that and continues yelling and getting closer until she's basically got you backed against the wall not noticing how scared you've gotten "You're my girlfriend not my fucking babysitter so how about back the fuck OFF and quit treating me like a child I can take care of myself S/n!" You try to back up now only for your back to hit the wall and you start to shake but try to talk some sense into her "I'm not trying to treat you like a child and you're right I am your girlfriend it's my job to worry about you and take care of yo-" you were suddenly cut off by South slapping you hard enough that it would probably leave a bruise especially since she's in her armor and glaring at you "Just leave me alone S/n I don't need your pity!?" Once what she'd done caught up in your head you couldn't help the tears that started falling down your checks as you shoved her back and unfortunately your anger and panic gets the better of you and you yell "What the actual FUCK is wrong with you South!?! I should have listened to everyone you really aren't a good partner I hate that I fell in love with you!!" And after that you see her face drop as she realizes what she'd done and what you just said to her but you just run out of there not being able to look at her and being reminded way to much of a person from your past.

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You run back to you room remembering all of the things a past lover of your's had said to you told you about yourself and told you to do and seeing how much South was acting like that person you started to break down.

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Suddenly you hear what sounds like South talking to you but she sounds almost disgusted which is a tone she'd never used on you so your head up to see a weird almost ghost like version of South standing in front of you "Why are you crying? Are you really this pathetic? God you're a fucking joke" you realize what your head is doing as you try to cover your ears but she walks to you and grabs both of your hands continuing to insult you with all the awful things you thought about yourself and what your past lover had said to you "Get up you pathetic little piece of shit, you know she'd never really love you so why hold on to false hope? Especially when you know how you could stop being such a nuisance to her" you open your eyes to find yourself standing in front of the knife you kept beside your bed with the hallucination of South moving your hand onto the handle of the knife and you pick it up and start to cut into the flesh of your wrist.

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Feeling the pain doesn't stop you if anything it makes you move it across your wrist faster and deeper as the blood drips down on the ground and you've almost got one of your wrists fully slit before you hear a horrified gasp coming from your door. You hadn't thought to lock your door. You had been to distracted by the hallucination of South.

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As you turn around you are South there horrified seeing what you'd done to yourself and just frozen not knowing what to do as you drop the knife and also freeze seeing that she'd actually come to check on you.

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After a few moments of silence she looks to your still bleeding wrists and slowly walks over grabbing your hand and brings you to your bathroom and starts disinfecting it, this being her way of trying to apologize even though her pride wouldn't let her say it out loud right now.

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Once she finished tending to your cut she wipes away your tears that were still falling down your cheeks as she pulls you into a hug and you want to still be mad at her because of the pain on your cheek but feeling her slightly shaking and holding you close like something precious and fragile how could you?.....and her of all people loving you enough to push her pride aside to come and make sure you're ok, though your still mad at her you slowly melt into her touch after all you weren't innocent in the situation either after what you'd yelled at her.

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After a few minutes of hugging she slowly pulls away and places a gentle kiss on your forehead and your can hear her mumble "I'm sorry S/n the shit I did earlier was uncalled for you were just trying to help me" her voice is low enough that even you being that close to her could barely hear it.

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S/n = State name

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You had just completed your finest theft from your best friend and crush Tex while you were hanging out in her room after a mission you had grabbed one of her shirts because of wanting something of her's to sleep in even if she'd never know what you were up to or so you thought at least.

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Once you were back in your room that night you slipped into her shirt and went to sleep peacefully while being able to smell her shirt while you did but unfortunately for you she didn't know as little as you thought.

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The next morning you were still sleeping and not up for you and Tex's morning coffee like normal do to you being too comfortable sleeping in Tex's shirt which resulted in her coming to see what was keeping you since you were normally up first just to end up finding you asleep curled up in her shirt and your pillow covered by a jacket Tex let you barrow at one point and had forgotten about.

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Hearing your rooms door open and feeling a pair of eyes on you quickly brings you out of your peaceful sleep but you still stay half-asleep when you hear Tex laughing softly at finding you like this and hear her voice a lot quieter than usual "S/n is there something you wanted to tell me maybe?" Tex asked in a teasing tone as she walked in to your room fully and closed the door as I roll over to look at her and try to explain "I just feel comfortable with a familiar sent near me at ni-" You got cut off by her pressing a finger to your lips as she said "I don't want your little lie S/n I want you to say the truth" she's pulls her finger away after she finishes speaking waiting for your real answer even though she already knew it.

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You look away to embarrassed and scared by the fact that she'd cought onto the fact that you were very much into her thanks to past experiences with other girl's finding out the you were into the same gender but you're shocked when she takes that as enough confirmation and gives you a soft but claiming kiss and pushes you farther onto your bed and laying down next to you as she says "I want to hear you say it later but for now come here since we've got time before we need to be awake" and she opens her arms for you to cuddle onto them.

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Once you cuddle into her arms still slightly shocked by not having been told off or anything and now even cuddling she speaks quietly "No matter what crazy shit you might tell me or I might find out about you S/n I'm not leaving got it?" She asks though it's more of her way of trying to comfort you as you softly nod your head and fall asleep peacefully in her arms

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Alright people!! Creators note here~ so this may be a big out of character for Tex but I CRAVE writing fluff of this women with reader's! Also YES I'm already posting again sue me~ don't actually though pls- but anyway I would love to hear any suggestions for other x readers y'all would like to see!~ and no it doesn't have to be a fem x fem and it can be smut but I WON'T do anything nasty people- but things like fem x fem, masc x masc, fem x masc, fem x masc x fem, masc x fem x masc, smut, certain kinks, cannon x cannon and WAYYYYY to many more cuz I low-key got tired of trying to write all of them down that I can think of lol

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WARNING there will be masochism and a bit of smut in this so if you're a minor DO NOT INTERACT and if you're simply uncomfortable with topics like that please leave and save yourself the trouble! You have been warned

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(You're pov)

You were the Agent that held second place on the leaderboard in Project freelancer which lead to you being left to be paired with your crush Carolina in training since you were the closest to her level even if there was still a big difference you'd at least not get your ass kicked as badly as some of the other Freelancer's so they usually left her to you in training.

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Today was like most you had been training with Carolina and unfortunately for you she wasn't in a good mood do to a mission going sideways and a few of the other Agent's getting hurt so you had a lot worse to deal with in training and even at the end she still hadn't blown off much of her anger but you could really focus on that when you were busy trying to ignore the growing heat and desire from how much she'd been basically treating you like a human punching bag and not to mention how (unfortunately or fortunately for you) good she was at it and how good she looked in the locker room after.

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After the get your armor off in the locker room you head to the showers to make sure to clean off all the sweat from trying to keep up with how much she was beating your ass. Once you're in the showers though you figure she probably wouldn't be joining you since beating you probably wasn't that hard for her so you decide to take care of the issues the bruises forming on your body from the training had caused

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As you start to touch yourself you rub your clit with thinking about how amazing Carolina's voice sounded when it was commanding you earlier and during training and you don't realize the foot steps approaching you until it's a little to late as you whimper *"Carolina.."*

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(Carolina's pov)

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She was still fuming even after training thanks to the mission yesterday having almost failed as she got undressed and entered the showers the last she'd expected to see was Agent (S/n Germany) her training partner with leg's shaking touching herself and calling Carolina's name while doing so but she didn't have the reaction even she herself would expect "Well (S/n or Germany) I didn't think I'd find you of all people doing something like this~"

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(Your pov)

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You were snapped out of your fantasy and pleasure as you hear Carolina call you out and your eyes open to look into her green ones like a deer in headlights at being caught doing such a thing and moaning her name while doing so and as you go to try and explain your quickly cut off by Carolina walking over to you and roughly kissing you and biting your lips as she pulls away "I don't want and explanation (S/n or Germany) so save that pretty voice for calling may name instead got it?"

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