My SexualAutobiography for Human Sexuality..
below is the paper i wrote lol i turned this into my professor, we didn't have to put our names on it.
Female Sexual Autobiography
            I just want to point out that this is very awkward typing this in the library. I keep looking over my shoulder to make sure no one is looking at my screen. But anywho, where do I begin?
           The first time I had sex, or attempted to have sex, I was seventeen years old and a senior in high school. I was the last one of my friends to have sex, but I can’t say that’s really what motivated me to do it. I was always curious about sex and enjoyed talking about it and listening to different people’s stories. I had only kissed maybe two people in my life so far and been felt up a few times which was cool.
           Well anyway the day it happened I was hanging out with some friends and the guy I had been dating texted me and asked me to come over. We usually hung out when I would go out with friends so that way I wouldn’t technically be lying to my mom when I said I was hanging out with friends. Anyway, I borrowed my homegirl car and went over to his house. Sex really wasn’t even the objective for me going over there, but once I got there I decided I wanted to try it. So we started to fool around and I think my anxiety about the situation is really what messed me up. It hurt SO FREAKING BAD. Seriously, there is no way to describe that pain, but I tried to hang in there because my friends told me it would hurt but it would start to feel better. Well, the better wasn’t coming fast enough for me so after maybe 3-4 strokes I told him I wanted to stop. Oh yeah, we used a condom. I was definitely embarrassed but he seemed okay about. I guess, to make up for the pain he caused me he began to perform oral sex on me. Now that, was AMAZING! I had never masturbated or anything so I didn’t know the things that I could feel I guess. It was great. After he finished, I can’t remember if I had an orgasm or not, I decided that I wanted to try and perform oral on him. Needless to say, I sucked at that as well. I almost choked when I first put it in my mouth and after maybe a couple minutes he just told me I could stop. Again, I was embarrassed but he wasn’t really bothered by it. I continued to date this guy up until halfway through my freshman year of college. We had sex very often, at least three times a week in that time span, so my skills definitely improved in all areas. I really do love and appreciate him for taking his time with me and being patient enough to give me time to get used to sex and find my groove.
           My next partner came three years later, this summer, I definitely associated sex with love in the beginning so I didn’t plan on having sex again until I was in love. But over my three year celibacy I guess you can say that I started to just explore more about the ideas about sex and the feelings and emotions that come along with it. I realized that sex was about pleasure but not always about love. I decided that I had been on my sexual hiatus for too long and I honestly thought I was forgetting how to do it. I decided that my roommate at the time who was one of my close guy friends would do. We had never been romantically involved before and honestly had no interest in each other romantically, but we were single, horny, college kids with space and opportunity so it just worked. Needless to say we only had sexual intercourse once, seriously, he was that bad. It had been three years and I could still recognize horrible sex, because that’s just what it was. I just remember laying there staring at the clock for twenty minutes waiting for him to freaking cum. I vowed never to do it again. Every so often though he would ask to do it again, he says he really enjoyed it, but I always avoided it and just gave him oral sex instead. Needless to say in a month’s time I became pretty darn good at fellatio. So from that experience I’ll say that’s what I learned. I just hate that that was my first sexual experience back in the game.
           My last partner came about four months ago. It was another guy from high school, we always had a thing for each other but nothing ever came of it because I was dating my first partner. My last/current partner and I are not dating or anything but the sex is great so we’re just fine with our status. He’s definitely more experienced than my last partner and has studied the art of sex in my opinion. We’ve only had sex four times but each time I have left happy, but I’ve never had an orgasm with any of my partners. I definitely enjoy having sex with him, although neither one of us has performed oral sex on the other. I’ve thought about it but I’m not sure how to initiate it. But this story is still being written so who knows where it’ll go.
           In my sexual experiences I’ve learned quite a bit about myself. One thing I’ve learned is that I’m definitely a giver when it comes to sex. I like to please my partner, that makes me most happy. Another thing is that I enjoy the foreplay more than the actual intercourse. Well, almost more they’re kind of equal, but foreplay is the difference between good and great sex. Also, I’ve learned that sex is a natural act and that it’s not dirty or nasty so I’ve become more open with the things I will and won’t do with my partners. Oh, and somewhere in the middle of the hiatus I started masturbating, and discovered that it really is okay to do. More people do it than I thought so it’s not as taboo to me as it once was. And lastly, I’ve learned that you can have sex without love and the sky will not fall as long as it’s two consenting, responsible people it will be okay. Â
