Aziz Mola

After yet another weekend drowning in the depths of negative thoughts and unhealthy coping habits, I had this strong sense that it was time to change. The will to change was as strong as ever but slowly doubt and fear began to creep in. At the back of my head was the constant reminder that I’d been down this road before. In the words of Chingy, every time I try to leave something keeps pulling…

Dear Abi, As fate would have it, I am back to writing a letter almost 5 years from the day I last drafted one around this time of the year. 2018 seems light years away especially considering the pandemic that hit us in 2020 which seemed to have distorted our sense of time – story for another day. Last time out, I was here ranting about not wanting to be a nice guy. The thoughts of a 28-year-old…

Am I ready for love?

It’s half past three in the afternoonI sit in bed pondering over the lyricsas Indie Arie’s I am ready for loveplays over the laptop speaker. I wonder where she found inspirationto write a song that seems to perfectly encapsulatea heart yearning to be loved.Why are you hiding from me, she asks. As time passes,I wonder how the linebetween lovers and strangerscould be so thin. How words can…

Hypersexuality and Mental Disorders in Men

Hypersexuality is an obsession with sexual thoughts, urges, or behaviors that may cause distress or that negatively affects health, job, or relationships. It is known to present itself as a symptom in connection to several mental and neurological disorders. Sexual promiscuity, sexual obsessions, and hypersexuality are very common symptoms for both men and women with borderline personality…

With everything going on in the world right now, it has been tough on the mental health of most of us – myself included. I hadn’t given it much thought until this week.

To be honest, I really thought I was coping. COVID is one thing but when you add to that the uncertainty and cases of police brutality. There is so much to make one just sit and wonder WTF.

The recent events in the US have…

Let Go and Thrive

When I got hospitalized after a failed suicide attempt, my mother asked me why I’m never happy. Four years later I am still trying to find an honest answer to that question. It takes an effort for me to reminisce on happy moments but the painful ones don’t even give an advance warning.

Every time I think about my father it is only grief that overcomes my body. I struggle to remember the…

I am the vessel of my father’s legacy the apple falling from the tree My name bears with it the history of my ancestors.

My body carries the pain of generational trauma my bones dancing to songs long forgotten my spirit weighed down by battles from a war, I wanted no part in.

I inherited my mother’s anxieties but very little of her faith or support system.

Like Atlas my world settles heavily on my…

Humans have spent centuries thinking and writing about love. We have made movies about love, written songs, and poems. We yearn to be loved and live to build up those we love.

Everybody has something to say about love and we all believe we know what love is, if not from our experiences in life then through literature and media. I also thought I knew a lot about love until I read Bell Hooks’…

Every once in a while I come onto this blog to read poems, short stories, and articles that I wrote in the past. I reminisce on how easy it was to put down in words what I was going through or things I had experienced.

It is hard to say when I lost my mojobut with it gone I also lost the little confidence I had in myself as a writer – and creative. Majority of my attempts at writing end with…

Breaking Stereotypes: Men and Emotions

“I disappear when I don’t feel like I am myself. I go to a place to fix things so I can remind myself that I am in control. That, I am awake.” He said.

Fresh off the bat, we can agree that most of us wouldn’t know how to deal with such a statement if it was presented to us on a platter, let alone how to decipher it. It’s confusing. It’s heavy. It’s raw. We tend to shy away from raw emotions.…

How Our Childhood Experiences Affect Adult Behavior

At the start of the year, there was an interesting discourse on Twitter about the experiences of those who went through Kenyan boarding schools. Despite some arguments to the contrary, there is a consensus that the system has left the majority of us with some kind of trauma.

https://twitter.com/Owaahh/status/1214800336340299776?s=20

Through therapy and self-awareness, I am slowly…