A face in the crowd

I haven't been on tumblr for while, and I just need some room to breathe and rant, i don't really have much to say. I must feel pretty damn angry a lot of the time, I'm trying majorly hard to keep a smile on my face but it's just too hard right now. I'm jealous, angry, upset. emotional,happy, thankful and rather annoyed with my self in one go. I'm just not too sure how I feel, which to be honest makes me feel lost. That's what I am, lost. I'm lost in a stage of my life which potentially is very important aaas really, soon, is the start of the rest of my life and I don't a plan, nevermind a back up plan. I can't possibly cry about it because I don't know how I feel. I just needed to let a little bit of emotion out, so thank you Tumblr for giving me the space.