Adrian Pascale

Damien felt some relief, he hadn’t told him which is good, but not even a cover story? He was lazy in the beginning, but it was a bit more believable not that he was sure Adrian would care. “I have a tendency to do that, I should have, but then again legally it is better I haven’t.”The thought slipped from his lips, but this was good. Communication was key in any relationship and well, he seemed to be failing greatly in that aspect, then again he never had anyone to raise him right. His mother fell too soon and his father came home. “Because, as I said, its a legal issue. If I did what I intend to do and you were caught up in it–you don’t deserve the repercussions nor a life sentence for assisting in what I have planned.” Damien would not tell him he planned on not only murdering his father, but ruining the lives of and possibly torturing everyone his father loved. It seemed too much of a liability, not that he couldn’t trust him it was just–he didn’t trust him with this. “No, its better if I keep my distance, if and likely if police get involved you need to have deniability. I understand you’re being sentimental, I thank you, but you don’t deserve to be caught up in this web I am creating. I will try to be around more,but this matter will not be brought up again. As I said, you need to be able to deny.” Damien knew where this was headed with Adrian’s coming confession, in truth he had known for a long time and honestly he was proud of him for being able to be honest about it. “Go on,” he encouraged and stayed silent. A smile crossed his lip as he listened to him, he placed his hands on his friend’s shoulders and looked up at him. “I don’t know how to show people I care about them. I don’t understand emotions; I don’t have them. I don’t experience them or show them like you. Its hard and its very clear I have failed you in that aspect as well. I do care about you, you are possibly the only person on this planet I give a damn about. What that means, I don’t know, but I care about you and that’s about as close to love I can offer or understand. But know, regardless of everything I will always care for you and want the best for you. I don’t know if I feel that back, I’m trying to understand what I feel.” He pushed himself up and placed a kiss on his friend’s cheek. “But if you find someone else who can love you the way you deserve then don’t wait. Your life is short, don’t waste it on a timeless being. And don’t allow yourself to stay so hung up.If you are having issues, get help, live a better life than this. Moving here was a new start, don’t lose that by staying with the past. My past brought me here and I have to end it. You are safe from yours, don’t let it control your new life. too.” He nodded, knowing he was not a far for being this open, but if Adrian needed it then he was happy to allow him to be honest. 

Adrian sat there. His heart racing from saying all of this stuff to the guy he had been hiding it from for so long. He nodded as the other said he needed deniability. “Why? Why do I need to deny anything? Dame, what are you going to do?” He asked worried and pulled the male close. “Please Dame. Please don’t get hurt. I would hate if you would get hurt and i could have possibly stopped that.” He spoke as he looked into Damien’s before the male started explaining how he felt for Adrian. He bit his lip and blushed lightly as Damien kissed his cheek. He nuzzled Damien close and sighed as he nosed at hiss jaw. “You don’t get it. I want my life to have you in it.” He spoke truthfully as he swallowed thickly. “Whether I am with you or not. I want you there. You aren’t just the guy I fell for Dame. You are my best friend. and even though you’ve been distant I still think that.” He sighed as he realized how he was holding Damien close to his body by the hips at this point. He moved forward and kissed Damien with every feeling he had in his body. His arms pulling Damien closer to his body. “I’ll only be happy if you are here. I can’t see a life with out my best friend.”

Colin followed the smoker once he’d taken his cigarette. “That’s unfortunate. You know what, just keep the pack, I don’t smoke anyway.” It’s not like he needed it here. His days of chatting up producers and other musicians were over after all. 

Adrian looked at coliin and bit his lip. “Then why carry a pack around?” He asked as he stood there taking a puff. It wasnt the brand he smoked  but it would have to do.

Damien turned, knowing he needed to get back out, but he was starting to think his efforts were useless. He’d done enough learning, he needed to start taking actions so what was stopping him? Maybe ruining what little life he had, but from the words Adrian was spewing he might already have. So why was that stopping him? Why was it stopping him anyway? “Did I ever tell you why I moved here?” He ignored just about everything his friend just said, he heard it, but it wasn’t important for the moment. “Probably not,” he sighed,knowing he was probably the only person not to make a deal out of it. He should have told.  “I’m here to find my father and essentially ruin his career. But its been hard to find the evidence, I’ve spent my entire life trying to find him and I had to be sure this man I’ve been following was him. But I am so close, I’ve spent far too much time double checking which is why I’ve been gone.” He pulls away from his friends clutch and places his hand on his friends cheek. “I’m sorry I’ve been a shitty friend and roommate, my obsessions tend to take over. But I will make this up to you. You are great, I care deeply for you and to ensure you will not be hurt by the repercussions of this I’ve been distant. Its to keep you safe.” He sighed and met his eyes. “If you want to talk about a real issue, we should talk about the amount of alcohol we have in the apartment.”

Adrian couldn’t even begin to explain how he felt about his roommate. They had been such good friend in the beginning and now he had spiraled into a depressed drunk and Damien an obsessed person. He looked at him and shook his head. “No you never told me why you moved here nor did I ask.” He said as the other answered his own question. He looked at him and sighed as he listened to Damien’s reason for being here. He ran a hand through his hair and looked at Dame. “Why didn’t you just ask for help? I mean i don’t understand why you’d want to ruin his career but I would have helped you find him.” He spoke before his words cut off to the touch on his cheek. A touch and moment he’d been yearning to have with the other. He felt his heart flutter and was sure the other could hear it. He bit his lip and shook his head. “I don’t want to be safe if it means you’re near me.” He heard the male say he cared deeply about him and his eyes locked with Damien’s. He bit his lip and swallowed thickly. “I have to tell you something. Something I’ve wanted to tell you for a really long time. But you’ve always been so busy I didn’t want to bother you. And right now here i am bothering you when you probably have ten thousand more important things than me and my problems.” He felt the anxiety building in his stomach and he moved closer to Damien. He cautiously looked at the male. “I-I know I’ve been drinking a lot lately. And I’ve been a bum. But god. I thought you wanted nothing to do with me and I’ve had this feeling for a long time.” He pressed a kiss to Damien’s forehead. “It’s just you’re the first person to accept me and talk to me and be my friend since my family kicked me out.” He sighed. “And you’ve just grown to have such a big spot in my heart. I-I kind of fell in love with you Damien.”

Adrian grabbed his roommate by the arm as he tried to leave the apartment. “Dame. Wait. I want to talk to you.” He said as he looked at the other male. “What the hell is going on with you? You haven’t been home. You aren’t talking to me. We’re supposed to be best friends what the hell.” He said as he looked at him with hurt eyes. “”If I did something wrong you can tell me. I-If you don’t want to room with me thats cool too but like at least let a guy know you’re done with the friendship.”

Damien hadn’t plan to go back to the apartment, frankly he was hoping to avoid it  if he could, he had so much he needed to do and little time. He needed to see if he could find Holly again and see if she might be interested in helping him with his father. But here he was walking down the hallway and as he rounded the corner he saw his roommate in the hallway, likely locked out given the lack of clothes. He wanted to just leave, let Adrian figure it out on his own. But since Damien never had that spare made and frankly needed to stop being a shitty roommate, he decided to let him in. “I feel a shirt should be the least of your worries. Are you even old enough to be drinking?” Damien, admittedly, didn’t know how old his roommate was. He stopped caring about age years ago, he figured if he could live on his own Adrian was legal and he wasn’t harboring a minor. “Why’d you lock the door?” Damien often felt like a parent living with his roommate, but he was grateful for him more than he told him. “Catch” he threw him the keys and waited for him to unlock it. 

Adrian sighed as he smelled his roommate coming down the hall. He rolled his eyes as he knew some sort of reprimanding was coming his way. “Im legal thats all that matters.” He said as he looked at him. He ran a hand through his hair. “Surprised your home it seems like you’ve been avoiding our apartment and me all together.” He spoke as he the keys.”I heard someone knock but when I caame out here no one was here. and the door closed and locked behind me so here I am shirtless in the hallway.” He said unlocking the door and opening it. “Still would be nice to see my best friend around.”