Aesthetics, I Guess

“He is constructing a god out of my body and I do not stop him. This will make a ghost of him and me. But tonight he needs an altar and I’m not here to be brave.”

“I realize that sex is ecstatic, it really is.. it feels delicious doesn’t it? I mean, who wouldn’t like to have it all the time? But to me, I don’t enjoy just having it with anybody and everybody.. it’s not just about release to me. It’s an intimate connection that I am sharing with another human being.. and if I’m not attracted to that human being on an emotional level, then the pleasure isn’t just all that great to me. It’s like going to the gym and running 1000 miles in a short amount of time.. getting all sweaty, and for what? Two seconds of pleasure and then that returning hollow emptiness? Nah, I like to be fulfilled completely in and out of the bedroom.. so I’ll wait for that special person to come along where I can have better sex than you ever had every time I have sex. There’s no need to go through life using people like tampons when you can have a baby with the right one, and the bleeding stops inside.. imagine having that your whole life. It’s a beautiful thought having sex with the right one, cause having sex with the wrong ones just isn’t worth it. Sex ain’t that good until it’s right.”

“It is enough, Kafka said, that the arrow fit perfectly into the wound that it makes. I think about my body in love,”

"But if I couldn't get love..." she said, "...please let me have peace, instead."

“I’m trying to carve out what is left of me that’s human; become something more, become something holy.”

“My love is for the ocean. My love is fixed entirely on the sea.”