everything is toxic

@adenamara

TRIGGER WARNING Fat fuck with lifelong history of mental illness, I'm really trying to recover but life fucking sucks. Mostly bpd, ptsd and fucked up eating. This is my anonymous blog and I'd recommend you to just block me.

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TW THINSPO.

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I’ll never be happy in this excuse of a body

my toxic trait is thinking that all the bad things happen because I'm fat

A problem: *Appears in my life*

Me: Oh well, maybe it’s becaus-

ED: IT’S BECAUSE YOU’RE FAT

Ever notice how skinny ppl can just... Do stuff?

They can eat.

They can be cringy.

They can have weird fashion.

They can make unfunny jokes.

They can talk all the time or not at all.

Skinny ppl can't be perceived as weird or gross...

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what the fawk 😐

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me trying to enjoy something: ☻

my brain: you can’t enjoy this because you aren’t skinny

me: ☹

i hate this fucking body fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i wanna escape from it

I recovered for a long time, I gained a lot of weight, managed to actually like myself anyways.

Until the person that I love, the person I thought accepted me and wanted me the way I am told me to lose weight.

Now all the bad thoughts and feelings are back, as if nothing ever changed.

How did I let myself go like that, I'm disgusting.

He knows about my Ed's but I guess it's that bad that me losing weight is more important than my feelings.

I was so hurt I wanted to break up, but now I'm actually thankful.

I regret ever having sex with him, that he had to look at this disgusting body and even touch it, I'm so sorry for being like that.

But I will change.

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me: *doesn’t touch food all day and isn’t hungry*

*takes a little bite from literally anything*

my brain: let’s eat this whole tv

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Sometimes I don’t even know what perfect is

Having a bad week mentaly everyone’s abandoning me when I need them it’s hard

skinnywhendreaming

I am 100% in control of what I eat. I do not need to binge or eat foods that will make me fat, I can control what goes into my body. I can control how I look. It’s up to me now.

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