Bielle Morgenstern

Pleasure file♡

Now I don't wanna overhype or anything but I think the reaction I had for this was kinda insane compared to the other ones I've done. This was a suggestion someone had given me, adding a request for me to squeeze my throat with my hand as I did this. Problem is I only have two hands lol, and I didn't have a way of securing my mic to my chest.

The other part of the suggestion was heavy breathing and stuff so I'm making a lot more noise than normal, which I try not to do usually

So, I don't think it's really the same, but I folded up a hoodie and put it over my face to make it just a bit harder to breathe. This actually worked a bit better than I expected since, like I talked about before, the weather here is hot and not having ac in my tiny room sucks, but I didn't wanna have the noise of the fan in the file so I've had it off, so it was hot as it is, and with the way I was breathing here, under the hoodie it was heating up fast lol.

I've never reacted this way before, by the end of this, I was trembling so much, and my heart wouldn't calm the way it usually does. Felt like I was on cloud 9.

Pleasure file♡

Now I don't wanna overhype or anything but I think the reaction I had for this was kinda insane compared to the other ones I've done. This was a suggestion someone had given me, adding a request for me to squeeze my throat with my hand as I did this. Problem is I only have two hands lol, and I didn't have a way of securing my mic to my chest.

The other part of the suggestion was heavy breathing and stuff so I'm making a lot more noise than normal, which I try not to do usually

So, I don't think it's really the same, but I folded up a hoodie and put it over my face to make it just a bit harder to breathe. This actually worked a bit better than I expected since, like I talked about before, the weather here is hot and not having ac in my tiny room sucks, but I didn't wanna have the noise of the fan in the file so I've had it off, so it was hot as it is, and with the way I was breathing here, under the hoodie it was heating up fast lol.

I've never reacted this way before, by the end of this, I was trembling so much, and my heart wouldn't calm the way it usually does. Felt like I was on cloud 9.

Back with another post and it's a pleasure one. I tried to recreate my most popular vid, putting the hoodie on my face to make it a bit harder to breathe and all. It turned out well here, but I don't think it's better than the og.

Pleasure file♡

Now I don't wanna overhype or anything but I think the reaction I had for this was kinda insane compared to the other ones I've done. This was a suggestion someone had given me, adding a request for me to squeeze my throat with my hand as I did this. Problem is I only have two hands lol, and I didn't have a way of securing my mic to my chest.

The other part of the suggestion was heavy breathing and stuff so I'm making a lot more noise than normal, which I try not to do usually

So, I don't think it's really the same, but I folded up a hoodie and put it over my face to make it just a bit harder to breathe. This actually worked a bit better than I expected since, like I talked about before, the weather here is hot and not having ac in my tiny room sucks, but I didn't wanna have the noise of the fan in the file so I've had it off, so it was hot as it is, and with the way I was breathing here, under the hoodie it was heating up fast lol.

I've never reacted this way before, by the end of this, I was trembling so much, and my heart wouldn't calm the way it usually does. Felt like I was on cloud 9.

Phupha chases the spirit, who only appears during the sunset. The spirit runs away from him, but looks back and laughs and smiles every so often. He leads Phupha over crystal lakes and giant mountains, but always disappears at the end right when Phupha gets close enough to tap on his shoulder.

At the end of every chase, Phupha, ravenously hungry, goes to the bakery on his way home to buy more food. So he sees Tian every day, and even though Phupha swears his heart belongs to the forest spirit, he can’t help the unfurling fondness in his chest for the son of the baker, who constantly gets into trouble, is always hiding from someone or dropping something. And he always, always has flour on his face. At first, Phupha pretends not to know about the clear fondness that Tian has for him, ignoring every hint that Tian drops about hanging out together or about his love life. He’s singularly focused on catching that spirit and seeing his face up close for the first time.

But one day, Phupha walks into the bakery after another tiring chase and sees a handsome man, the son of the village chief, flirting with Tian. This starts a conflict in his heart as he doesn’t understand just why he got so angry when that happened.

It keeps going like that where even though Phupha keeps chasing the spirit every evening, his feelings for Tian grow bigger and bigger than those for the spirit. Phupha struggles a lot with these feelings until one day, he sees Longtae rehearsing asking Tian out on a date.

That’s when Phupha realizes he’s willing to give up chasing that beautiful, ethereal forest spirit so that he could truly love Tian, this troublesome, hopeless romantic, too genuine boy that always greets Phupha with a soft “Huana”, a tone that he doesn’t— and shouldn’t— use with anyone else.

And with that realization, he runs into the bakery, takes Tian’s hand and almost drags him out (poor, confused boy) and takes him to the crystal lake. Even though Tian is really clumsy, he’s still able to navigate the woods with relative ease, although he tripped (a little too on the nose) when Phupha looked at him with puzzled eyes.

They get to the lake where the sun is starting to set and Phupha says,

“Tian, I’m in love with you. The you that drops a tray on his own feet, the you that always has flour smeared on your face. The you that got into a fight with those dishonest traders from out of town and then had to spend the entire day hiding behind the counter. The you that is brave, that risks your own life to make sure that the townspeople aren’t cheated, the you who is so gifted with bread that the entire store always smells like heaven, the you with such bright, determined eyes that my fatigue goes away when I see you, the you who says my name softer than anyone else alive. If you love me back, let me take care of you, and please take care of me. I give you my heart.”

And then Tian responds with neither a yes or a no, but a completely unexpected, breathless, elated, “you caught me.”

And Phupha just goes “WHAT?” His brain is confused but his heart is starting to connect the dots.

The sun starts to set then and Tian starts to glow so bright that Phupha has to close his eyes, and when he opens them again it’s the forest spirit standing in front of him. But now that Phupha can see his face closely, he realizes that the spirit is and has always been Tian, though in this form he’s wearing a spotted deer pelt, has longer hair, pointed ears, markings on his face, and glowing eyes.

“I’ve been waiting so long for you, Phupha.”

END

bonus:

“How did I not connect the dots at all before this?”

“My dad always took over when the sun started to set, but obviously you didn’t know this, because you were always out looking for me.”

“You troublemaker!”

“It’s a good thing I’m cute, right?”

“You have flour on your nose. Again.”

“Just admit it! I’m very, very cute.”

“I never said you weren’t. You are. But don’t make me climb a mountain to chase you again. My legs can’t take it.”

“Can your legs take THIS”

“Oomph— Tian, you are a fully grown man. My legs are going to fall asleep with you sitting on them!”

“So much for romance. I’m gonna run away again.

“No, please don’t, has anyone told you that you’re very cute? And that I’m very tired?”

“Hmmph.”

“Don’t be like that, Tian. Can I get a kiss?”

“Not from this forest spirit.”

“Then from the baker?”

“Fine.”

“I said KISS not rub the flour onto MY nose!”

“Hee hee hee look at you now Chief Phupha The Protector of the Forests with flour on your NOSE hee hee hee :D”

“You see this line?” the shaman had asked, shaking his head, pointing at a line on the center of his palm. “You see how straight it is? There are no rigid categories of right and wrong. Be sure to look at the grey areas in life, my boy. Not everything is black and white for you.”

Nam had scoffed a little too loudly then, muttering something like see, I told you!

The shaman had touched the area where his thumb had ended, pressed down and said — you have no emotional connection to romance. Not yet anyway — in a blatant dismissal.

Phupha’s eyes had found Torfun’s eyes, then, who in turn had only smiled in return, her eyes dancing with something akin to amusement.

“You’re just going to have to be careful,” the shaman had said.

“Careful about what?”

The shaman had looked unimpressed, had pressed his lips in a thin line, and muttered quite seriously, “Someone is going to enter your life in bouts of hurricane. Nothing is going to be the same for you — you will thank them for that. You will love them for that. You will love them for showing you how to live. You will love them for everything that they are.”

Phupha had been amused by this. “I will?”

“They will come and you will want them gone. They will stay and you will love them all the same. They will leave and you will find your heart leaving with them.”

not for the faint hearted nor for the ones who've yet to finish the novel. this gets heavy, and real sad

The Crown Prince Who Fought The Gods

- after the fall of xianle, his highness loses everything; his parents, feng xin and mu qing, his kingdom, everything. he begins cultivating as a coping mechanism, all of his anger buried deep within his heart. neither the whole yong'an revenge nor the hundred swords arc happens, because bai wuxiang for plot's sake doesn't exist here since we're amidst the making of the new white calamity

xie lian's second ascension happens. as soon as he arrives in heaven, he unleashes all the rage he's been keeping inside. he fights every official he sees, screaming bloody murder about how they've left him, how they've wronged the citizens of his fallen kingdom

his banishment is where things go askew. instead of returning to the mortal realm with cursed shackles, xie lian demotes himself into a ghost, harnessing evil intent and resentment of all the people he could not save

his resentment grows strong enough to even break the shackles at some point, and when that happens heaven and earth shake as if a new calamity was born

the new white calamity, mortals and heaven officials alike would whisper, the prince who fought the gods

The Princess Who Slit Royalties' Throats

- this one's pretty gruesome but yushi huang, in a fit and on the last bit of her rope, goes on a rampage the day pei ming's army threatens her family (it was the build up of her resentment for their mistreatment finally blowing over). "if you won't do it, then everyone else's blood should suffice" she said to her greedy king of a father, and starts slashing everyone else's throats

the king, who's rarely showed any emotion, looked up at his daughter in fear as she stood over the bloodbath. she had mad killing intent in her eye as she walked past him instead, out into the pavilion for the entire kingdom to see

she screamed for bloody freedom, for bloody repentance, and cut her own throat. pei ming's army slaughtered the kingdom as promised. the kingdom cursed their king for not sacrificing himself, and pledged their malicious auras to the dead princess instead

yushi huang's ghost grows powerful thanks to this, and with her rose the green calamity, the color of her fallen kingdom's insignia and for faming yk but im just eyeballing for aesthetics sake

The General Who Broke Swords

- a sequel of sorts for yushi huang's tale, she haunts pei ming for a good portion of his mortal life as a general after her kingdom's downfall. she whispered to him white lies and half-truths until he turned insane, became paranoid his men would turn against him

in the end, the revolution to make pei ming the king just . never happens, and instead we get a bloody war of a hundred men against one powerful general with the ghost of a calamity over his burdened shoulders

pei ming leaves rong guang last, and the two former partners stand over the graveyard of their men's corpses. "you've changed." rong guang said. "no, i'm growing stronger." pei ming replied, and the two fought neck and neck until a surge of power lands rong guang's sword broken in half

pei ming kills off rong guang with the very sword named after them, and as per canon after he comes to he realizes what he's done and breaks ming guang in half, except this time he pierces his own heart

up rises the crimson calamity, with his near sentient broken-in-two sword ming (and) guang so imagine e ming for hua cheng that's how ming guang is for pei ming here except it's two pieces of a sword and not a scimitar with an eyeball

The Young Lord Who Poisoned His Wine

- the existence of the venerable of empty words and his brother's constant pressuring drives shi qingxuan into alcoholism. shi wudu has yet to find the fate-swap method so all he's been doing is keeping shi qingxuan locked up somewhere, in some city

shi qingxuan rarely saw daylight due to this, and even so alwags he'd move to a different city in the near future so it didn't really matter. wine did not help, nor did it lessen his worries or inhibitions but he kept drinking anyway

it got to the point that he just . hated living so one day, when he's grown just too antsy after migrating, he snatches a few jugs of wine and escapes

he asks around when he gets to a busy street, and he finds out he's moved to a little village near the beach side. a vendor approaches him, an old man who looks like he knew all of shi qingxuan's secrets, and gives him a small vial. "i hope you make the right choice." the old man said, and when shi qingxuan turned to where he'd walked away there was no one

shi qingxuan walks by the sandy shore with wine and that bottle. he doesn't even hesitate to open it, or pour it into a jug of wine.

the venerable of empty words finds him, whispers "you'll die if you drink that" as if it was a threat, and shi qingxuan smiles darkly. "that doesn't scare me anymore."

he finishes all the wine, and lets himself simmer in the poison. black calamity is born on those salty shores, and the first thing he does is finish off the venerable of empty words

My mom said Wen Ning and Lan Zhan are Wei Wuxian's attack dogs and it hasn't left my mind since……

Fengqing

are you in love yet?

Bésame

bind

do i wanna know?

Golden Light Soothes a Hurt Heart

hard to reach (harder to love)

I Didn’t Mean It (I Did)

i have died everyday waiting for you

i won’t run from you

little beastie

Morning Sun

Mu Qing and his Cursed Luck

The Chapstick Challenge

The Five Sweetest Words

The Meaning of a Dream

The Rivals Edition to Hate, Joy, and Love

Things We Lost in the Fire

To Trail A Killer

try to be rhythmical

Waffle Irons and Autumn Warmth

we wake up together and you suggest we eat breakfast

where you go

would rather be a headache

you, my antagonist

Quanyin

between a wish and a prayer

cold hands, warm heart

consolation match

gifts

rough

Shuangxuan

a better ending

All That Was Lost, All That Remains

Blessed Beginnings, Blessed End

bringing in the wine

critique

empty waters

even the mayflies fly away

feast

if you can’t summon the flames directly from hell, store bought is fine

Into Darker Water

living with the ghost magnetic

of debts

On Working With A Water Demon

pearl

returning tides

sink

Still Waters

stronger currents

the art of cruelty

the tide it takes me away from you, and it brings me back again

the vicious, vengeful sea

too good at goodbyes

venues

vermilion

walking on air

welcome to my cage, little lover

wangxian mermaid au part 2, origin story to how lwj got his abilities to transform into a human

something like, a powerful land clan, the wens, threatens to wipe out the ocean clans,  devastatingly cripples all the families u know like how the canon goes, and wwx knows a way to assassin wen ruohan. It’s just a way of using his witchcraft powers on himself to transform into a human and sneak into his seaside palace all that, lwj wants to go with him bc he’s worried that wwx will be consumed by his powers.

in order for wwx to cast the spell on lwj, he needs to take his voice, the most powerful weapon of the lans, an entire sect built on magic and their history as sirens. so wwx promised to keep it safe for lan zhan, locking it away right where his core used to be. 

together they traveled to the surface, and did what needed to be done.

when they return, barely making it out alive, they were met by the lans. rumours have spread that wwx was conspiring with the wens, tricking the poor hanguang jun and taking him as hostage. lwj did not hand the sea witch over. Instead, he pointed his sword against his elders.

lwj brings wwx back to the burial trenches, and returns home to receive his punishment. he goes into seclusion, injured, bed ridden, unable to travel back to the burial trenches to see if his love is okay.

one day, lan wangji wakes up screaming, voice seeping back down his neck. 

“great news! the sea witch has died!”