Dont be afraid of what can get you high.

The years between eighteen and twenty-eight are the hardest, psychologically. It’s then you realize this is make or break, you no longer have the excuse of youth, and it is time to become an adult – but you are not ready.

Here’s to the night I stood alone, to the night I cried so hard I couldn’t breathe, to the night I prayed for him to come back to me, and of course to the night where he never looked back.

2015; 1. Sleep earlier, rise earlier - get off your phone, set a time, create a habit. 2. Read more - and not just shitty fanfics. Read them too. But read. Read classics, read newspapers, read magazines, read fictional books, read joke books. Just read. 3. Stay away from people who do not deserve you - you are worth a lot more. Fuck their shitty opinions. 4. Eat well - and I don’t mean diet. I mean, eat well. Eat healthy, indulge every once in a while, but don’t go overboard. Eat for your health and not for society. 5. Create a plan that will be enjoyable for exercise and just do it - no fucking around this year 6. Study well - an hour every single day. Just one hour of uninterrupted, that’s all it will take. Apprendre et travail dans Francais - Je ne sais pas si ce est juste, pardon a mon francais suiveurs 7. Pamper yourself- give yourself one hour. One hour a week to unwind. To week to wash your hair, leave in your conditioner, soak your skin, have a face mask, shave your legs, light some candles, drink some tea, put on nice smelling lotion and comfy pajamas, put on some nice music and sleep well. 8. Put in an effort - doing your hair nicely, putting on that clean change of clothes and a simple coat of mascara has a lot of power to make you feel a hell of a lot better 9. Learn new VOCAB - because why the fuck not? Write down your new words that you learn while reading, use them in conversations; expand your vocab, because when you are sitting in the exam room, you’ll be glad you have. 10. Plan an outing once a week - have something to look forward to, to be excited for. Experience new things. 11. Set small goals - 3 small things to do every day, and don’t sleep till you have them done. 3x365 knowledgeable achievements will be worth it - trust me 12. Meet new people - don’t be so quick to judge. 13. Love yourself - I’m still trying to figure this one out, but I’m beginning to feel like I am worth it. 14. Art - practice makes perfect. Work, and when you can’t work, learn. Discover artists and their pieces, their inspirations, their style. Document it. There is always something to do to improve, whether it be through practice or research. 15. Stick to these goddamn goals. 2015 will be the shit if I make it.

I hope my daughter never feels this way at night.

I tell myself I am searching for something. But more and more, it feels like I am wandering, waiting for something to happen to me, something that will change everything, something that my whole life has been leading up to.

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You never apologized to me for hurting me, but I apologized to you 12 times for being angry about it.

My heart swings back and forth between the need for routine and the urge to run.