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trying to feel better but all i hear in my head is "useless useless useless" over and over and over and it's getting to be too much. maybe if i get things packed i'll feel better. maybe i wont feel so worthless. but im so fatigued.

why do i have to be so USELESS istg if i could just do ANYTHING RIGHT my mom wouldnt have to fucking file for bankruptcy. im such a failure. nothing i can actually manage to do is enough.

my new cup fits exactly half of a bottle of wine omg lfg

how the fuck is it so hot in my room my ac is definitely low enough, my fan is on and its not even that warm outside??? so why am i sweating under a single blanket????

y r we so self loathing rn. wtf. can i not thx

im so mentally exhausted what did i do to deserve this??? i literally havent even done anything today but go to the post office. gonna try and pick myself up and pack those items i have to go out tomorrow and maybe thatll help kill some time before bf o'clock in 4.5 hours

i rlly need to get something decent on my stomach or im gonna die and not get to hang w the bf tonight

my mom upset at me for Something this morning and idk what but im Scared of her blowing up at me within the next hour oh boy

cmon vinted sell something give me something to do

being forced into survival mode when you've been trying so hard to be better is really humiliating

GOD I NEED TO GET FUCKING OVER MYSELF IM BEING SO PATHETIC RN I THOUGHT I WAS TRYING TO GET PAST THIS SHIT?????

all these other people i see in my discord dms like. i havent spoke to you in any depth in years. youre online and so am i but do you think of saying the things that are bothering you the way i want to talk to you? do you remember me? do you care about me? am i bad for only wanting to talk to you when im like this because i was able to be vulnerable with you once in my life? so many questions and never any answers

at least i cant afford coke. not that it did shit for me anyways

well whatever i did i think its working despite my sinuses being on fire a lil bit