Actively Numb

How much I miss you , I did my engineering but didn’t learn any such unit that can describe how much I miss you , I am now 24 but I missed you since last 100 years and still I don’t know how much I miss you , I have so many people to share things about but still something left unsaid ,this is also not enough to tell how much I miss you,

i read so many books , but unable to read your mind in your last time might this will tell me how much i miss you ,

whenever i hug my sister and tell her that i am your MOM , might that will tell how much i miss you , 

whenever that lady touches your stuff ,might  that burn my inner soul that will tell how much i miss you , 

praying to god , take me instead of you might tell how much i miss you ..

It’s not start when it’s your first day on this sphere whom we use to call earth or we may call the day you born or the day when your mother get relived from the pain she was suffering since last 9months.

It starts very before then that day when your father who don’t even know whether he will succeed in his attempt or not or whether he don’t want do get succeed, but it starts it starts with a fight, the fight that some people don’t know about, the fight between good and bad, fight between you and yourself and behind this fight somewhere love is also there love between your parent’s chromosome and here you are in the womb of your mother.

And the matter of fact is that till now not even full organs of your body develop or we can say from your infant stage you start giving problems to other, and the very first person with whom you did this is your mom.