I was applying for work from an ESL company this past week. I was so happy during the interview, I was immediately hired (in my perception). I didn't know exactly the process at that time (false hope), I even prepared my room set up and all the required equipment for teaching. At first, my location was not accepted and I talked to one of the interviewers that just give me chance and will fix it up. And yes! I feel blessed that day for he allowed me. Everything was perfectly arranged Boom! I created my ÓFFICE. Then, after that tech check, I was turned over to a pre-orientation (as they called it), I cannot imagine that there is a possibility that you might fall in the middle. Upon knowing that there is a chance that I will not pass during their mock demo, I was a little panicked. For more than 12 years, I worked in an office on the corner. I created reports and seated them for analysis. I was thinking that the said company, I applied for will be giving me enough training, like me. , they will open doors for us who wanted to be back in teaching and try to grasp what was lost. A sad reality is that during the mock demo, I was distracted due to my partner told me that I presented the wrong file. That caused me trouble, and I was not able to handle the scenario. My pronunciation was a bit confusing together with my hands trembled. I was totally dismayed by the whole process. That the trainer sent a private message (PM) to me that I did not pass. After all the efforts you exerted and the sleepless nights, I really wanted to give my best and ended with NOTHING - But pain and hurt.

I just want to tell that company, that they should not do that to their applicants. If possible give them enough time to learn your platform. Just don't say you did not pass just because of the nervousness.

The fact that I have attached all the necessary and legal files in requesting my Unemployment Benefits Claim and that application was rejected!

Nevertheless, upon knowing the status, I was not expecting it to happen. Why? Because almost all of my batch had their certificates just the same as mine and all of the people applying, it is me who was REJECTED! I cannot believe this really.

But, on the contrary, at the back of my mind, I am really being tested? What is really the message of this scene? What GOD is trying to tell me then? I should get mad but I opt to be patient and figured it out. Just now, I sent an email inquiry, asking them why.

Hope to get an answer from them, by tomorrow.

Praise GOD that I never let the devil win. I just stay relaxed and pray.

How about you? Do you have the same scenario as mine? Then what you did do to make things better? Can you share?

Do you know what really stuck us in a very simple thing? It is because of NOT focusing on what you are doing.

Last week, I filed my unemployed benefit claim online. I didn't read any instructions nor understand what was in there.

After 3 days, I checked my inbox mail and to my surprise, I don't receive any feedback or reply to my query.

Then, I emailed again, and ONCE more the instructions were sent. OMG! I just read it carefully now, it says there that "REPLY ONLY with your attachments".

What is really the message here, is that when we are too busy with all the things that surround us and forgot to focus on what our goal is- the result is a FAILURE.

There are lots of stuff in my mind right now, I just don't really know what the thing is. As a human, it is normal? Or shall I say, we are a bit confused about life, but one thing that I am sure of, GOD is with me, you, us, and the whole world...

Do you feel the same as me? You know, I am writing now, simply because, no matter how confused I am, I am always sticking to the word of GOD.

And the long wait is over, until such time I got a message and talked with my Head that my contract has ended! Oh, God is really working in an unexpected way! That I don't need to explain my part.