An's relationship with Vivid Street is actually far more complex than many people give it credit for.
For all they talk about how precious An is to them, Vivid Street actually harmed An instead of protect her. While Vivid Street did give her encouragement and support, they also distorted her perception of love. An loved RADder and Vivid Street as she grew up there and viewed them as family, and she was told that Vivid Street also loved her. However, RADder would constantly abandon her if a work/Vivid Street emergency came up, breaking their promises to spend time with her, as seen in Vivid Old Tale. Before Light Up the Fire, An fully believed that Nagi left for America without a word because of a good career opportunity. This led An to think that people would inevitably leave her no matter how much they said they loved her, which ended up affecting her other relationships. When they first became partners, An had conflicting feelings about Kohane's growth. She loves Kohane and knows Kohane loves her as well, yet because of her warped sense of love and abandonment issues, she believed Kohane would eventually leave her if her singing wasn't good enough to make her heart pound, just like Nagi did.
Even though Vivid Street lied about Nagi's death to respect her last wishes, they ultimately betrayed An and broke her trust. Even if An understood their reasoning, they subconsciously had an effect on herβthe idea that people who love her will still break her trust was further reinforced in her mind. Although Kohane trusts An completely, this trust was not fully reciprocated by An. An believes in Kohane's ability to sing; that is true. However, An didn't trust her as a person, thus she intentionally hid her feelings of insecurity from Kohane until Whip the Wimp Girl. She feared that Kohane would feel disappointed if she revealed her uncool side, because she wants Kohane, more than anyone else, to look up to her. She's unable to stop herself from feeling that way despite knowing Kohane would never think something like that.
π§: I didn't want you to know that I've been feeling this way, Kohane. I was afraid that you'd feel disappointed after seeing how lame I really am...
πΉ: ...! No, I'd never!
π§: I know. You'd never feel that way about me. But... I can't stop myself from feeling scared.
(Whip the Wimp Girl, chapter 6)
Perhaps An was also afraid that after telling Kohane the truth, Kohane would promise to never leave her but end up breaking that promise in the future because that was what happened in the past (and as the saying goes history repeats itself), thus she kept it a secret pre Whip the Wimp Girl.
In the end, An was able to overcome her fear because her love for Kohane is different from that for RADder and Vivid Street. After her singing battle with Kohane, An realized that they will continue chasing after each other no matter what happens, because they're partners (who are also rivals in a way). They'll always have the desire to make their partner's heart pound with their singing to drive them forward. As for Vivid Street, while An still loves them, she will likely never be able to fully forgive them for lying.
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