On the topic of Mirena, I’d like to disclose my personal relationship with her. I met Mina sometime around January/February of 2015, meaning that our friendship was almost two years old. At the time, I was very heavily under the thumb of the widely known abuser, Arietta, who was called out on several occasions, by several different people, including a bajillion callout blogs dedicated specifically to her. Myself and Mina (as well as a bunch of others) were both victim to Arietta, and thus became exceptionally close as a result of our similar stories, or so I thought. As it turned out, Mina and I weren’t ever on good terms, and while we were supposed to be “close” she had claimed to hate me and wish I was called out under the guise of being a “motherly figure” in my life, a claim that she made knowing full well that I have a history with parental figures and do not have a good relationship with my current mother. All of this, while managing to scam a multitude of those in the community out of up to $1,000 (as beautifully described by Azu).
So, Mirena / Mina / motheredthem / kannonbiraki / wherever the hell you decided to run off to now, here’s the callout you were SO afraid that I’d be dropping. Honestly, you did this to yourself, and I feel no sympathy for you, because the truth is that you’re pathetic, and on behalf of all the friends you claimed to love, including us who were in the close knit family that was created to help us cope with our abuse, I hope you leave forever and NEVER come back. You don’t deserve a good standing in this community. You deserve to rot with the other abusers that have swept through here.
Alright, then. Let’s get started, shall we? I’m not putting this post under a readmore, but I will tag it with long post & the normal callout tags.
Bear in mind, when I first began speaking with Mina, our relationship was exceptionally strained, considering at the time I was wholly dependent on someone who repeatedly sent her death threats and stalked her. Eventually, I ended up dropping that person, and Mina was the first to congratulate me and offer to help me through it, even assisting me in rekindling and forming friendships with people who I used to be at odds with. She added me to a group chat, and we all talked it out, and now those people are my family, and the best friends I have in the whole entire world. I love them with all my heart, and the part about Mina that pains me the most is she put them through a hell of a lot more than any person should have to handle.
I was under the impression that our conflict was over, and a few months into the chat, after meeting Danny ( @spraypaintpunk ), I decided to look into Borderline Personality Disorder, and eventually ended up with a diagnosis. I actually spoke to Danny the whole way to my diagnosis, excitedly discussing the prospect of finally being able to put a name to what I’ve been feeling all these years. Even when I already was confirmed as borderline, I would often go speak with Danny about little inquiries as to BPD behaviors, as even confirmed by him. However, when I brought my self-discovery into the group chat, Mina privately messaged a mutual friend ( @masochisticsadist ) about her discomfort towards me, stating the following:
The “someone” in the chat is obviously me. Mina refers to the person as “her”. At the time, there were only four girls in the chat. Myself, Lily, Forza, and my girlfriend at the time. She already stated herself that the person in questions wasn’t Forza, Lily was the person Mina was talking to in private, and my girlfriend at the time rarely showed her face in the chat. So, the only person left was me. Lmao like … really, Mina? It’s so funny that you’re claiming me to be a liar when you’re literally sitting here complaining about me behind my back when in the chat and to my face I am the precious child that you never had. To insinuate that I was the one making that chat toxic, when you would consistently bring your bullshit into it, always accusing us of ignoring certain people or acting out of line, always lecturing us about everything, when all I tried to do was make everyone feel safe and loved. Anyone in the chat and who knew me at the time can attest to the fact that I was going through a rough time and still managed to try and bring some laughs into our safe space. I tried my damnedest to atone for my past and I did a really fucking good job of it, so don’t sit there and act like you were all HOLIER THAN THOU when it was YOU who fucked up the dynamic of the chat. Not me.
You claim that I was not being 100% truthful. I can only assume this was in refrence to my stating that I had BPD. The assumption is based off the testimony of several people who have come forward and said that Mina has told them that she believed I was attempting to “imitate” her and “steal her identity”. You can find screencaps to support my claim below.
Full offense, Mina, but Go Fuck Yourself. YOU CLAIM TO HAVE BPD YOURSELF, you should know that BPD is a disorder rooted in identity problems. To go out there and purposefully suggest that I Could Not Possibly have BPD and was just stealing it from you knowing my background and my personal issues. Or is the fact that you knew my personal issues actually why you felt so comfortable contesting my diagnosis? I mean, after all, you did willingly admit to wanting to use my personal problems to your advantage when I was as young as fifteen (read: My old alias was “Jax”.)
I find it hilarious that you can say all this yet back down so quickly at the prospect of me dropping a callout on you. I vagued once, one (1) time. The sheer thought of me dropping a post on you terrified you, didn’t it? Is it because, despite you SHIT TALKING me behind my back, you know that once I start talking, other people will too? Is it because, no matter how hard you try, you’ll know people will never trust you again after one of your “kids” speaks out against how ABUSIVE and shitty you’ve been? Is it because you know when I open my mouth what comes out is always the complete, total, and unabashed truth? How does it feel, being so violently jealous of a seventeen year old girl that you can’t even bear to look at your own Twitter timeline for fear someone would ask me about that one vague? LMAO. You’re a pathetic piece of gnat-infested garbage, Mina.
Anyway, lmao, if you can believe it, I haven’t even touched the tip of the iceberg with this stuff. My initial conflict with Mina began months prior to our actual confrontation, when she began engaging in activity that I, personally, did not agree with. I won’t touch too heavily on the subject, but Mirena (a 21 year old woman), explicitly discussed her sex life in the presence of minors, even mentioned in passing that she wanted my dad to raw her ( though, she does have a history of fetishizing black men while demonizing black women, as described in Azu’s callout ). Frankly, I also believed she was engaging in shifty behavior, when she was speaking to Ommy ( who makes myself and a bunch of her other former “family” extremely uncomfortable ), but proceeded to lie to us and say that “they weren’t even that close”, and that “she’d drop them soon”. I began to shy away from Mina after this, feeling very uncomfortable, when she ended up vaguing a friend who she claimed to be close with. That friend confronted her, and she apologized to them and appeared sincere, but the tweet remained up, anyways. Now, keep in mind that I am in no way defending that friend, as the situation is none of my business, but I was so angered at the thought of Mina engaging in the same SNAKEY behavior that she exhibited with us that I confronted her, angered, after removing her everywhere (image below).
After this message, Mina found the tweet and removed it, then we began to have our exchange. Screenshots of the conversation below.
Then, she proceeded to say that she was “just like Ari” (forgive me, she deleted her Twitter, so I don’t have the screencap of that). I followed up by shutting that comment down immediately.
I don’t have the rest of the conversation, but it essentially consisted of me telling Mina to go Fuck herself and that I wanted her out of my life, her saying she was sorry once more, and me saying that I was, too. This was the last personal conversation I ever had with Mina. Keep in mind how she never once says that she believes she was in the wrong, but she seems like she honestly believes she’s in the wrong. I was still pissed, but HOPING that you’d change. But your text messages demonizing myself and Danny to a mutual friend of ours tells a different story. I won’t include the whole conversation, because it includes personal stuff about someone who doesn’t deserve to have their shit put out there like this, but I’ll include what’s relevant to me.
Funny how you said I was copying you for saying I had BPD and yet you pull this shit lmao. “I’m battling schitzophrenia.” Sounds like something I’ve said before. Sounds like an excuse for your actions, just like how you tried to claim you had an alter to excuse your actions.
Wow, Mina. No shade, but I FUCKING HAVE BPD, you giant fucking potroast, what in the world makes you think that I’m ableist? “They are talking badly about me for panicking over things I thought I was being excluded from exclusively” – YOU MEAN when you flipped out over the prospect of Lily, Danny, and Eevee having a separate group chat after our old one was dissolved, sending Eevee into a borderline panic attack and stirring up a lot of trouble and mistrust between our friend group? Trouble and mistrust that you later blamed on Forza? You’re pissed because we got angry that three friends weren’t allowed to have a group chat aside from the main one that was no longer in existence while at the same time you were allowed to be in a group chat with three other, separate people from that chat without it being a problem? Yeah, we were talking badly about you for “panicking over being excluded”. It definitely wasn’t that you were acting like a piece of stinky fucking garbage.
Honestly, this is the part that made me the most upset. “Azzy has talked badly about me for talking to ___ who I’ve also known for longer than ___.” FIRST OFF, I’m not going to namedrop the person you were talking about, so I’ll just call her “L”, but fuck you. Fuck you for absolute real. I’ve NEVER had beef with L. I’ve NEVER thought poorly of her. I’ve NEVER done anything to even suggest that I have ever disliked her. Now, I have talked badly about Mina for speaking with Ommy after confronting her initially and having her lie to my face with the claim that she’d drop her, and I quite frankly don’t give a fuck about namedropping Ommy, because I’ve always publicly and unwaveringly expressed my views and opinions on her, opinions that Mina apparently felt comfortable enough talking about to her, lmao. Hey Mina, protip, but maybe you shouldn’t talk about “your family” to someone you KNOW makes them uncomfortable and that they hate. I’m gonna move on, however, because this isn’t a callout on Ommy, it’s on Mina.
“Azzy has talked badly about me for being quiet about abuse that happened to me and considered it the worst part about being friends with me because I didn’t want to talk about my abuse with some people. Because she told me everything going on in her life and I didn’t tell anyone much of mine.”
This is probably the most offensive, bullheaded, fucked up, shittiest thing you have ever fucking said in the history of EVER, you fucking no lipped, shit sucking, armpit hair licking, ape looking, maggot vagina having, water casserole baking, “this seltzer is so spicy Margaret uwu” piece of shit ass. I stuck my neck out for you TIME AND TIME AGAIN you shitstick. I called people out for you. I sat and took abuse for you. I’ve tried to comfort you and talk you out of suicide, I’ve been there for you through thick and thin, through you STALKING A FUCKING BLACK MAN and calling him your boyfriend when he wanted nothing to do with your printer paper looking ass, through you being disgusting, through you fetishizing me. I was there for you through your breakup with one of your more recent boyfriends, although maybe I shouldn’t have been, because you said that my 16 year old self would seduce your 30 year old boyfriend and that it wasn’t “out of my character”. Like, not only did you just insinuate that you thought your boyfriend was a pedophile (since he’s in his early 30s, lmao), but you also insinuated that you would continue to date him if there was even a possibility.
And, last but not least, you claimed that you made me. I’ll bypass the borderline ableism in your suggestion that I am not who I am today because of my hard work to manage my disorder and overcome my years of abuse and instead skip straight to why I disagree. You didn’t make me, Mirena. I mean, who do you think you are, Dr. Frankenstein? You were never the one I asked to help me learn more about my disorder so I could better myself. That was Danny. You were never the one I saw up with at night when I was feeling down. That was Eevee and Osiris. You were never the one who I admired for getting her life together and going to college early and making something of herself. That was Forza. You were never the one I asked to help me with my essays and pass my classes. That was Lily. In fact, Lily did a HELL of a lot for you. If there’s anything Lily is not, it’s the demon you tried to make her out to be. Lily is one of my best friends, the person I admire most in this world, the person who I want to model my life after, the person who protected ALL OF US when you fucking didn’t. How fucking dare you suggest that she is vicious and cruel and unforgiving? How dare you insinuate that you trained her like a dog to follow your orders? Nobody owes anything to you, Mina, especially not me, especially not Lily. You can take your fake shit and you can bring it to someone else, because I don’t want it.
I hope that when you see my name around it gives you a stinging feeling in your chest. I hope seeing me around makes your breath catch. I hope you’re always looking over your shoulder, wondering if I know where you are and what you’re doing. Because, let me make myself entirely clear: If you come near my family ever again, I will ruin you. I will make sure I dedicate every waking moment of my life to taking you down. Because, unlike you, I stick my neck out for people I love, and I will never let you hurt anyone ever again. Even with my final, dying breath, I will scream from the rooftops about how you deserve nothing more than the gum on the bottom of my shoe. So, as a final, heartwarming goodbye:
FUCK YOURSELF, AND STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM US.
