About myself

Good news: I paid my loan so I don't need to give money back anymore Bad news: Zero extra money can support me to develop extra hobbies or extra events

I'm upset. (spent 2h to adjust my mood, hard to accept the feeling of I have to be poor again though the day being rich can last 2 days only) The society just admit skills which can get money… :( It's the biggest reason I think the life is sucks

The damn mum complaint how annoying my behavior again tonight. I just don't want to see her anymore because I'm enough on I must try every meal she cooked. I want personal room.

All of them is quite quiet. No one care me. No one appreciate my artworks. No one willing to chat with me.

I have no idea how to deal with my social medias. All people on them just live quite good. I'm the only poor one, nothing available to chill.

Why I never can use influence to done something? I hate that so much. Nothing I shared can be seen by more people without spending money to promote.

He said Start from the bottom.

Well, jobs without the requirement of experience are quite valuable. Really valuable. I asked a few online friends, I asked for help on the internet, but none of them could give me an exact answer for what I can do immediately.

He said just find a job which for cash only. Dislike the job/dislike the boss/dislike colleagues is fine. Just do that and don't think about anything else.

Alright, I decided to test my luck on a new job type after hearing that --- I asked a few HR can they could accept me as a cake decorator without any experience. I asked many of them the same question. One of them responds: No.

Maybe my Jesus heard that. The boss I contracted 4 days ago have responded me, which is a cool news I'm expecting to get all the time.

I know my experience is too poor to afford a job in his companies clearly, but I still want to get his attention because chances maybe come from a try sometimes.

Thanks, my god. I feel I'm blessed and the fate listen my ideas for the first time, I'll appreciated this try forever.

I must deal with my sucky case once I awake again. No income for 4 years. I know what I want to do in my life after spending 4 years exploring, but everything just starts. Not enough resources available to learn. I mean, from everything. After 4 years that I still did nothing useful for my career because being poor is the most horrible thing. I'm a person who is not only never interested in popular art styles and game types, like sci-fi and oc-dreaming, fps games and roguelike games.

I'm afraid of building a close friendship with other people. I'm addicted to getting attention on the internet with my artwork and my opinions, but things always not go as I expected.

No one has a duty to support me.

No one has a duty to listen to me.

No one has a duty to help me.