dreams

and the rest of us chose to leave the country and disappear somewhere out there .. move to a place where no one knows a thing about our history and past .. start a new life with new faces

then i woke up .. to find myself in my bed..

i had an other weird dream today ... it was a sunset or a sunrise .. am not sure ... but when u look at the sky .. you see some redness .. blue.. purple..pink..and orange .. no clouds.. and you can see more than one planet.. there was the moon and the other planets .. and the were so so so fucking close .. and there were aliens.. and my family didn't believe me when i told them ... u can't see them .. and they only appear in the dark .. the drug you .. then the take part of you brain .. after that you become under their commands .. then .. my sister and some stranger tried to tie me up .. because they were turned by these aliens .. and i started to fight them and trying to kick them away .. then u woke up finding myself in my bed ..

he was tall, dark hair .. amazing smile .. musculaire body .. wearing a black t-shirt... in the kitchen.. cutting carotts .. while am sitting in front of him ... staring at him .. and my mind was blowing.. i remamber that he looked at me then smiled .. like he knew me .. like he knew what i wanted to say .. i had this feeling of clarity after i woke up ... i know what i wanna do next ... am gonna fune a nice looking guy with an acceptable mind and thinking .. go out on a date with him ... then look at him in the eye and say " i want my first kiss to be with u .. " and then kiss him ... and probably am gonna do the same in loosing my v card .... that dream made me think of all the things that i said no to... the things and the opportunities that i missed and regret sometimes .. this time i choose to live .. love and accept the challenges of life .. good or worse .. this is my life .. and am choosing to choose.