Abigail Neyra R

All the being and the doing, expansive, glittering, vocal, evaporated; and one shrunk, with a sense of solemnity, to being oneself, a wedge-shaped core of darkness, something invisible to others.

I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun.

I went to raves as a teenager and I’d wear tiny t-shirts meant for eight-year-olds, high-waisted flared jeans, Nike Air Max shoes, a lollipop in my mouth, and very dark brown lipstick. Hideous.

Nunca había sentido que fuera capaz de amarle como ahora lo hacía, ahora que todo amor era imposible.

Mis sentimientos y mis deseos no han cambiado, pero una palabra suya me silenciará para siempre.