Lucy

we have now closed the show and i am unfathomably sad about it; a fair tradeoff i think for getting to do the best thing i've ever done in my entire life for six weeks running. it usually takes a while for feelings in general to catch up with me but I started crying in my car on the drive home. that said i've been sad about the prospect of the show ending since we started working on it so that's pretty much on time, all things considered. i'm covered in bruises and my house is full of flowers and i love my friends so much it makes my ribs hurt. going back to my other job tomorrow and it'll be nice to be back but I don't know how I'm going to answer a single question about the show without bursting into tears. what an absolute miracle of a thing to be part of but also, ow.

the show is up and i love it so much and it is so good and I want to do it hundreds more times. slight downside: if I go home immediately after the show I am still too amped and insane to sit down so my post-show ritual is now to either go to the pub for one (1) beer or, if nobody wants to go to the pub, I go for a run. the latter definitely sounds healthier unless you consider: my knees. it's fine. i take fish oil. it'll be fine.