Guilty Gory Pleasures

A year after I originally made this blog, I was diagnosed with cancer. I went through surgeries, and then radioactive treatment, which my body unfortunately reacted badly to, breaking tissues it wasn't supposed to, and leaving me disabled with permanent severe pain and nausea. I tried to get surgery and treatment in an attempt to fix it, but it only made it worse. Though that being said, I should be safe and cancer free. And luckily I was approved for early retirement this year due to my poor quality of life. I am definitely the youngest retired person I know During these years I also tried to spend time with terminally ill loved ones, who unfortunately didn't win the fight against cancer. My heart goes out to anyone who has dealt with cancer one way or another. My life will never be the same, but I will forever cherish the moments I shared with the ones I loved.

I used to not feel like I could relate to most men, but have later found new comfort in how different a man can be without it necessarily having to mean anything, nor need a deeper explanation. But I also believe in not having to spend your life in a body that makes you feel wrong, and I hope people find the help they need in time to enjoy their life as they are meant to. I’m fortunate to have befriended some very sweet trans people who’s taught me things and how differently the body can respond to HRT, as well as provide good sources to different surgeries and models. I plan on illustrating studies so people don’t have to look up porn to see what a trans body can look like. I am personally not comfortable with porn, and it upsets me that seems to be the main way a lot of people look for reference. As for the question, some of the things I enjoy drawing are hands, backs, necks, eyes, mouths, teeth, ribs, pelvises, skulls, lungs, heart strings, and I very much enjoy drawing the mesentery, and much more. I just really love bodies and how they work and look, and hope to illustrate it well, both artistically and medically