One of those Oblivion Battery babbles once again
I mean... It's not subtext that Chishou is suicidal. It's practically text. Even if we don't know how he ended up in the hospital...
He says things like "I wanted to be liberated as soon as possible" and even worse things down the line. He doesn't believe that he has a future, and if given a chance to do it all over again, I would too.
But you know, despite all the words of self-loathing and how he presented himself, I think, he really wanted to have a future with Haruka Kiyomine. He says he just wants to bring Haruka to the future, but you'd know, as the person who had devoted his everything to his childhood friend, he would want to remain by his side in the said future.
But really, there's just so much a person could take. Ntm, the guy is in middle school even. His despair, burnout, compounded by feelings of guilt and self-loathing became too much to handle and he just gave up.
But even then, he's still here. The seasons passed without any regard for his own wishes to be gone. He's still here, giving it his everything. I hope he could accept the fact that he is loved. He recoils from the slightest affection that he receives, mainly because he feels like he doesn't deserve it. But he has given it his all, you know. If Todo could find salvation in the daily lives they spent together, maybe Chishou would too... Kaname Kei, you are loved....
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