Be Create-ing

Tuve un sueño encantador, en el que pude decir gracias y adiós a alguien que vio mi potencial y me dio todas las oportunidades que se me presentaron.

Se detuvo para darme un abrazo y luego se fue. Pero volvió a decir lo decepcionado que estaba de que me fuera por algo más "brillante". Después de un rato, tuvimos otro abrazo de despedida y seguimos nuestro camino.

Me sentí triste, feliz y agradable. Tanto consciente como inconscientemente, mi corazón sabe lo que esta persona significa para mí. Sé que nunca podré pagarle por la confianza que tiene en mí. Nunca lo olvidaré a él y al ejemplo que me ha dado sobre cómo ser un gran líder. Echaba de menos trabajar con él, pero nunca olvidaré las veces que hemos trabajado juntos.

Espero que tu próximo capítulo sea tan bueno como este. Cuídense y ojalá nuestros caminos se vuelvan a cruzar algún día ❤️

Had a lovely dream, where I got to say thank you and goodbye to someone that saw my potential and gave me every opportunity that came along.

He stopped to give me a hug and then he left. But came back in to say how disappointed he was that I left for something more “shiny”. After a short while, we had another goodbye hug and we went our ways.

I felt sad, happy and nice. Both, consciously and subconsciously, my heart knows what this person means to me. I know I can’t ever repay him for the trusts and confidence he has in me. I will never forget him and the example he’s shown me on how to be a great leader. I’ve missed working with him but I’ll never forget the times we’ve worked together.

Back at it!

It was not my usual one hour but it is enough for me to remember every details of him.

De vuelta en eso!

No hay caminatas matutinas para mantener nuestros registros juntos.

Le extraño 💛

No me desperté para ir a dar mi paseo matutino.

Tuve que comenzar mi día con el desayuno de inmediato.

Week one.

Still thinking about him everyday.

Every morning.

Starting my day with our songs.

And remembering our short, frustrating, sweet times together.

Semana uno.

Sigo pensando en el todos los días.

Cada mañana.

Comenzando mi día con nuestras canciones.

10 posts!

And I’ll show you the same courtesy

But it’ll be more intense and “spicy”

Ser honesta de una manera respetuosa

Y te mostraré la misma cortesía

First walk after 3 weeks away.

Thinking of our time together.

Songs by him ❤️

First book of 2022 done 🥳 Not putting a goal for myself but would rather like to enjoy reading for myself in my own time at my own pace 🥰

No surprise that it is a short story book because my brain can only focus for so long. I don’t know why short stories compilation get such bad rep but it shouldn’t.

Short story does not mean that the stories are less impactful or meaningful or memorable. It just means that you’ll get to the ending faster without having to add all the extra details unless it’s necessary.

Every great writer should write a short story. I think it will challenge them in a good way

How it began was a blur but it stayed with both of us even after 17 years have passed.

He still feels safe after all this time

He felt familiar

He gives me hope

But

He also takes it away

As he pleases

Now

Once and for all

Letting him stay where I should have

Remnants of what was

Inside ourselves

Even on our best days

Trying to make sense of all the stories in my head and put them into words. Here goes nothing.

First road trip with a bunch of close friends. Excited but also very much aware of how each of them are including myself that I am not expecting a smooth trip. Someone is bound to annoy or piss someone off at some point during this 3 days trip. I do however, am glad that I am getting out of the city before finally, starting work next week.

Am I looking forward to the trip? Yes! Am I looking forward to having a relaxing trip and enjoying amazing food? Yes! Am I excited to be spending time with people that claimed they are close to me but never really shared real life experiences that they should with me? No. Not really.

I’ve not been working since beginning of this year and have had plenty of time with myself and trying to heal myself. Never did I realised that I had PTSD from everything that have happened to me and my family while growing up. It took me going to Vietnam, finally having a clear physical space to finally see clearly my own mental state. It wasn’t great at all. I’m glad that I went to Vietnam, even if its for a short time. It woke me up and made me want to change how I am living my life and what I want to be doing my life. Although, career-wise, I am still unclear. I am interested in more of a corporate side of a business but long-term, I do not want to be in corporate forever.

Anyway, I always do this. Steer away from the original start of my post. The road trip. The time with myself had me pulling away from my so-called-babies. It is for my own healing, sanity and self-control. Nor do I want to insert myself where I am not wanted or needed. I have been enjoying working on my self-healing. Do not need their opinions and negativity to mess with that.

First day of blogging on tumblr. Letting all the stories in my head out on site since I'm not using paper.

Stories might be made up, might be real. Depends on my mood and the ideas in my head.

Will delete Wordpress as it is too complicated for me to learn to navigate. I just need a safe place to talk to myself after writing something down.