Sometimes I wish I could have someone to confine to at night. I hate to admit it but it does get lonely occasionally. 

2020 has been a shit show. Being in a middle of pandemic, the economy is suffering, riots across the country, WW3 almost erupted, many beloved figures died like Kobe and that’s just some of the shit to name a few. Mind you we’re only in May and it’s like every month something worse comes along. TV screens and social media is blanketed with cities on fire. This whole thing doesn’t even feel real. This is something straight out of an apocalypse movie. Every month it’s like a never ending plethora of new bullshit being announced. I’m upset with the state that we’re currently in. I’m not sure what to do but I’m already anticipating that what we’ve all been witnessing since the beginning of the year is only the start of it all. If you aren’t as frustrated as I am, then you haven’t been paying attention.

I just want to be sure that whatever I decide to involve myself in, whether that’s a thing or person, it’s going to be worth it. That I’m not ultimately just gonna waste my time in the long run. So it’s important for me to really pick where I choose to invest my energy into.

I keep asking myself if I really want somethings or am I just absorbed in the moment? I find myself constantly stepping back to evaluate everything and I really don’t know if I over analyze lmao but God knows how quick I can get over something so I guess it can’t be helped.