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i wasnt too sure abt this one because i set myself out to actually use transitions but something about it just feels empty and i dont know what....

also I LOVE YURI!!! YAYYYY DOOMED YURI!!!

ok this was rushed but less rushed more as in i wanted to make it and didnt really care if it was a masterpiece. but maybe someone out there in the world will think its a masterpiece. i think i should rewatch last night in soho its such an overhated movie i literally love it so much.

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honestly i have no idea what happened here. i actually did not sleep at all last night and instead made 3 edits so. be warbed. i am so exhausted but its 7 am and that is NOT and appropriate time to sleep.

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hiii guys its me ya boi.

now listen i do not like to associate with the arcane fandom because i am scared of judgement from others BUT i really really really love the show and i can't just NOT edit it.

also when season 2 came out i watched the entire thing on horse tranquillisers and now i cant watch it again because it was so amazing its like it was made for horse tranquillisers. NOT saying you guys should do horse tranquillisers please dont do that. dont be like me.

its over for me.

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guys i am not trolling that is the name of the song and it is my favorite song in the world and i have no idea what its called or who its by but thats kind of the whole point.

anyways blade runner just so happens to also be one of my favorite movies!!! and i thought it fit so well together. feeling #blessed.

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guys can i confess. when i was in one of my mental health crisis', i would play the therapy monologue on loop for hours and memorized it off by heart and that has not helped me in the slightest because. now whenever im sad i just go;

she said that every living creature on earth dies alone. "how did that make you feel? " it reminded me of my dog callie. she died when i was 8, and she crawled underneath the porch. "to die." to be alone. "do you feel alone right now?" i mean, i'd like to believe i'm not but, i just, i've just never seen any proof so i, i just don't debate it anymore, you know, it's like i could spend my whole life debating it over and over again, weighing the pros and cons and in the end i still wouldn't have any proof so i just, i just don't debate it anymore. it's absurd. "the search for god is absurd?" it is if everyone dies alone. "does that scare you?" i don't want to be alone.

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if you ignore most of the script these two were the most in love people to ever be in love. I also read the entire script for this edit and JESUS they genuinely have, like, 1-2 serious discussions. its kind of disappointing BUT It is so them, but tbf if my best friend was killing dudes and kissing me, I would help her find targets like HELLO!?!?!

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