I pray God sends me my husband soon. Why? So I don’t get caught up with this man. Please let me fall so deep in love that I block him and keep him away from me. I’m trying to be good these days.

yesterday at work I had two thoughts in my head and they both came true. I predicted two things and a second later someone said what was in my head. I predicted a color too. It was so weird.

mentally stuck in the summer of 2024

having such a rough day and all I want to do is call him

breaking news: she pushed yet ANOTHER man away from her! she’s on a roll and can’t be stopped!

we haven’t talked in two days. I know it’s for the best but I miss you.

“I’ve never held someone in my arms like that and it felt that right. It’s like I could’ve held you in my arms all day.”

we hugged. he tried to kiss me. I resisted for an hour. and then I couldn’t resist anymore. we kissed. I let go. we kissed again, in his arms. I couldn’t stop kissing him. It felt so sweet and right. and then I backed away - I told him stay away from me, don’t contact me anymore. don’t text me again, we can’t do this. he’s not good for me. he tried to reason with me. I unlocked my car and hopped in. and I haven’t heard from him since, but I’m so happy he’s not making this hard on me. I don’t want to suffer anymore. I want someone who’s going to bring me peace, and this man will bring me war.

yesterday you hugged me. just wrapped me in your arms and I couldn’t resist. you were swaddling me like a little baby. and I let out a big breath because it’s been a while since anyone has ever held me like that. made me feel safe again. like all of my worries were just air coming out of a balloon and emptying out. and the worst part of this is? I can’t even have you. It’s not fair.

I feel like nobody will ever compare to the love I had for my ex ? it’s been almost two years now ….. am I just going to miss him for the rest of my life?

I was thinking of him last night & he texted me

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you.

I have like two married men in love with me rn what the fuck lmao