Call Me Luke

I spend a lot of my days away from people, I get very nervous and shaky around lots of people. They freak me out. Anytime someone looks at me, I feel as if they’re silently judging me. I sleep a lot and I cry a lot and I don’t really know what I want out of life. My family thinks I’m some lazy shit because there are times when I’m so devastated I can’t even find the energy to get out of bed, or shower, or eat. I’ve attempted suicide. They think it’s a plea for attention. Nobody really expects me to make anything of myself.

And knowing that Yoongi went through that pain of depression and he fought it and people told him he wouldn’t make it in the music industry and he still kept fighting and fighting until he did, that’s so fucking admirable. I look up to him so much. I really really do. He’s such an incredible human being and he’s so strong and he deserves the fucking world. He really fucking does. I really tried to keep my cool when they won artist of the year, but as soon as I saw him break down, I lost it. He has been through so much. He has felt so low and worthless. He has felt loneliness and pain. So seeing him cry today out of happiness was such an amazing thing to witness. And I love him. And I hope he knows how loved he is. And I hope he never returns to the dark place he was in ever again. He is a role model to me. My biggest role model.

Reclaiming Fitspo: Brenda Villa

Villa is an American water polo player. Standing at 5'4" and 174 pounds, she is the shortest member of the US women’s polo team.

Born in Los Angeles, she is the daughter of Mexican immigrants. She first joined a water polo team at 8 years old, following in the footsteps of her older brother. However, since her high school did not have a girls’ team, she spent those four years on the boys’ water polo team instead. This helped her to establish a competitive attitude that contributed to her becoming a 4-time 1st team All-League member, 4-time 1st team All-C.I.F. and a 4-time All-American. She was even invited onto the Junior Olympic Team when she was 16.

While Villa attended Stanford University, she played three seasons on their polo team. In her freshman year alone (2001), she scored 69 goals and was named the NCAA Women’s Water Polo Player of the Year. In 2002 she led her team with 60 goals to win the NCAA Women’s Water Polo Championship. She was then awarded the 2002 Peter J. Cutino Award as the top female college water polo player in the United States. She graduated in 2003 with a degree in political science.

Villa joined Team USA in 1998. This means that she has participated in four Olympic Games (earning one Bronze medal, two Silver and one Gold), often scoring the most goals per game for her team. She was even made team captain of the 2005 US national team, winning a silver medal at the FINA World Championship in Montreal. When considering multiple World Championships, Pan American Games and World Cups, Villa is officially the world’s most decorated athlete in women’s water polo.