My Blog..

When you feel empty and numb , the days seem to drag on

I'm sorry

Life isn't easy. You struggle everyday in one way or another, but what matters is who you want to struggle with.

Hope you have a good night, I know you have been busy and everything but I wanted you to know I miss you. I miss hanging out with you and watching shows. Talking on the phone and hearing about your day. There's not a second that goes by that I don't in some way think about you, or regret something that I've done in regarding us. It hurts. Knowing that everything that we had is over and it's scary that it's changing. Seeing you drift further away until the point of you barely talking to me or thinking about me. It messes with my head , making me feel tight and restless. Losing sleep, not being in the right state of mind is exhausting. I'm not telling you this to make you feel bad for me. I'm telling you this to let you know that I still and always will love you. No matter how far we are from one another. I will always be here for you . The point of this wasn't to let you know how I am but to let you know you're not alone or not being thought of. You are so special and mean so much to me no matter what happens. I just wanted you to know that.

That moment when someone cuts you out of their life

Sometimes I feel like I'm walking through a slutgarden. There all watering me down

I don't know who I blame more.. Myself , my sister , my mom. In the end it doesn't matter, I'm the only one that I'm left with at the end of the day. I did the worst thing possible and I have to suffer for it.