he can’t be my rock and i just want him to be my rock i just want him more then anything i could ever describe and more then anything i have ever wanted. i am so hopelessly in love i don’t want to hurt anymore i would rather be dead.
my chest feels hollow like my heart has been torn out and lost, i feel more depressed then i ever have, i wish there was anyway he couldn't be gay and that we could of just stayed together and been happy together. everytime i think about it i want to cry, i'm so scared that now we're not dating he is still going to leave me, i feel like i need him in my life but i know that he doesn't want me to need him, my head hurts from confusion and from trying to prevent myself from crying, which hasn't worked.
he wants to go out and sleep with guys because thats what he is missing from his life but i just want to kill myself so fucking bad, i seriously don't think i have anything going for me now, the love of my life doesn't want me because i am a FEMALE and he is a HOMOSEXUAL but i just want him to want me so bad, i feel like i'm so clingy and the only one to want him. like when he says he needs space i freak out like he is going to leave me forever. i wish i had the guts to leave somebody, i feel so numb right now i can't breathe I JUST WANT HIM TO LOVE ME
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