whatever I want

I love being called a dumb bitch who is worthless. By those who say they love you the most.

Do you ever just want to hurry up and die because you know hell can't be any worse then how you live?!?! Ugh I hate this damn place!

So I been going through a lot lately. My uncle passed away. My daughter got a head injury and then I torn the ligament in my foot. My boyfriend thinks I'm going crazy cause I want space. I just wanna be alone. Too much is going on. Work has really been stressing me out alot. Too much anxiety to deal with anything I just wanna lay in bed and cry. Everyone keeps saying everything will be alright but nothing feels alright right now.

I'm so high right now I just took out the trash in my underwear and it's like 12 degrees outside. I'm so stupid sometimes