i want to be unbearable

alexandre cabanel (1823-1889, french)

poor and rich. healthy and sick. young and old. she is for everyone. and for no one. 

depression loves wholeheartedly. in her arms, you’ll feel everything and nothing at all. at once and all the time.

she is the best lover you’ve ever had. or never had. both or neither.  

you are the world for her. and she is - for you. 

the two of you - in the dark dusty room - together forever.  

she whispers sweetly bitter things in your ear, she says you are no good, you are nothing without her. you are, you are.

and you don’t remember yourself before. was there something? wasn’t you born with her, wrapped in her arms. 

Yellow Flowers (also known as Coucous), Henri Fantin-Latour

Medium: oil,canvas