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And what exactly do I do

As a kid, I believed her and from the day on, kept god inside my heart and took him everywhere I wandered.

Although the memory of abuse has faded and only shows itself in the faintest of flashbacks, dreams and my depressive episodes, I shall never forget the exact moment when my belief in god shattered.

If god truly existed inside of me, my innocence would not have been lost at the age of 7.

I stand firmly with my nation and its people.

We stand united and undefeated.

The battle that left us bloodied and extravagantly wounded is now over and the constitution has written itself with regards to this revolution.

As spring approaches, the future seems uncertain but beautiful and the stars have begun shining more luminously than before.

I shall not surrender, not until my blood touches the pavement, not until justice is served.

It was never supposed to end with me being wrecked, but it did. And now I am here. And I will go on.

He laughed and proclaimed that I had been doomed from the beginning, that every story ends with me being slaughtered.

I had decided long ago that if doom was inevitable, I shall make the most out of it.

If all flesh is to rot, then I am made of flesh too. Let me rot.

If all I ever have is darkness, then let it be extravagant.

If I am to bleed, let me go to war first.

If I am to go down, I will go down with my colors flying.

And I may not be me.

But, you shall find me again. Even if you’re a thousand years late, I will still be here.

Perhaps in a different form, where you are the sea and I, the land that meets it.

Where you are the star and I am a spec of dust surrounding it.

I shall meet you, yet once again.

I may be not able to precisely define exactly when, where or how,

But till then, I promise to rover, a million miles, in search of you.

translation: "My wish is that you may be loved to the point of madness."