aug21

wearing oversized t-shirt and biker shorts when i’m skinny

I DON’T KNOW IF I’M BI OR LES PLEQSE

imma just put my ed aside and eat and workout and fucking live like a normal person ok??!

why do i have over 4000 followers omg it stresses me out lol. i might make a new blog

am i disgusting if i eat 1300 cals a day?

i’m literally diagnosed with an eating disorder but it’s ednos so my dumb brain says ”we can go worse”. what the fuck? when do i deserve help?

i accidentally ate a pancake that had been left for my little brother and my stepmom said ”it’s nothing new in this household”. she’s my meanspo.

this one song reminds me about them and us kissing. but they were drunk and they had had a breakup that day so it wasn’t anything serious to them. i have feelings for them but i also want to enjoy the song without thinking about them. i need to get over because i know that i can’t be in a relationship yet. yes, i’m 17 and i’ve never seriously dated anyone. i don’t let people near me. i feel like i’m perfect only when i’ve hit my ugw. when i’m thin and delicate and hospitalized. i’m just wasting my teenage years.

i gained. a lot. it makes me feel bad and i want to binge but i’m trying to resist the urge

the feeling of being back on track with my diet is the most motivating thing ever

i’m getting a new phone for christmas and obviously it means a new start too. i must be skinny by then