timo

90% of ppl with ED’s on this app do not think having anorexia, bulimia ect. is a good thing. it’s not like that. we are pro acceptance of ppl who have ED’s who don’t want to recover yet.

we know we can’t force each other to eat or get better but we can encourage harm reduction i.e. staying hydrated, not fasting longer than 72 hours ect.

For me, not eating becomes a much bigger issue in the evening. When I am hungry my body absolutely overreacts and does not get tired at all which is why I usually lay awake in bed for multiple hours while every minute not eating becomes a bigger challenge.

So that is my everyday struggle. The hardest part of the day. When one part of my brain tells me to keep going, to not eat, not waste the progress I have made while the other part screams at me to just screw it. Just screw this eating disorder and eat.

My biggest tip, the only thing that has kept me from bingeing late at night is that I tell myself this:

"Okay. I see you are not sure about what you are doing. I notice that you are hungry and just want to eat. This means that right now you are driven ONLY by hunger. Your rational thinking is enabled and your primary instincts are taking over. Fact is that you have eaten today. Fact is you are not starving to death, since your body is built to easily survive temporary periods of starvation.

So here is the deal: You are not eating more today. But IF tomorrow after you wake up you should still think: "screw this!" You get full permission to screw it and eat whatever you want to."

And I really give myself this permission because it has NEVER actually happened that I woke up after this internal dialogue and still wanted to eat. I always wake up happy, thankful and motivated.

Ehhyyy