being an eldest daughter is pointing out to ur parents that your sibling has an ed while knowing that no one is ever going to notice yours

I wonder if every eldest daughter has experienced that moment when the family finally collapses and all you can think is I failed

never stop reminding your girl how much you want her

One of the worst realizations that I have ever made is realizing that all I ever wanted was to be loved by my parents. I never would've turned out like this if they just loved me unconditionally.

i feel like there's a point being the oldest sibling where you stop being your parents' child and start being just some person who happens to live in the house

The eldest daughter urge to "move away from home and cut off her family"

another shitty thing about being the eldest daughter who based her worth on academics and how useful she can be to others is that it physically hurts to ask for help even when we desperately need it. it's an internalized belief that we should we able to figure out everything on our own and it sucks

Everything feels like rejection and it makes me sick

my dad had a full conversation with me about how he knows my mom abuses me and my sister and then proceeded to tell me that my mom actually loves me and is a good person and to just keep everything a secret.

why my family makes me feel i have no family at all

Have you ever wished you could tell someone the whole story of why you are the way you are?

Abusive fathers will make it clear they don't care if you live or die but you WILL do as you're told and abusive mothers will make you feel like you're the worst thing thats ever happened to them and every single bit of misery in their life and everyone's life in general is personally your fault, and also you look despicable

i want my childhood back. the one that they stole from me.

The eldest daughter urge to "move away from home and cut off her family"