life hits you with the hard realities sometimes. recently, people close to me have been experiencing very devastating things in their lives beyond their control, and it breaks me heart to witness and be a mere bystander to their pain. i’ve been very sensitive the last couple weeks, crying at every tragedy i hear about on the news. i guess im scared and tired of seeing this shit, you know...

with everything that’s happened to me this past year, seeing these harsh realities of life really does put things in perspective. 

life is SO fragile, cherish it. i want to spend my life as happy as i can, living out every dream i have. and with the holidays near, the idea of a “cookie cutter life” is more prevalent in things like the media, and sadly, that’s not the case for a lot of people. i don’t know where im going with this, but i wanna feel grateful right now. so i’m going to list some things that make me so thankful and grateful.

1) though it can be my flaw, im grateful for my compassion for forgiveness and love. i think i would be an empty person without it. 

2) grateful to have a warm bed to sleep in every night, especially with new york’s cold winter coming up 

3) grateful for such a loving (and crazy) family

4) grateful for the food that nourishes my body

5) grateful for the books that nourish my mind

6) grateful for music

7) grateful for being alive in good health physical health

8) though i don’t always feel mentally okay, i am grateful to have the tools and resources to get help and the outlet i need