ghost of a chance
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Changes, changes, changes. Junhoe was always on the lookout for them but too often he was too fearful, too indecisive to take a big step forward and grab whatever lemons life was trying to throw at him. In a way, he was comfortable with his stagnancy, though at the same time he was cursing himself for standing still for too long. He couldnât find the happy medium, and he started to seriously doubt one even existed.
Lately his time was mainly being eaten away by his nightly profession. He didnât mind it much, his secret occupation itself, but he was getting exhausted by the routine he had been stuck in for years now. Whilst completing his military service, which was also supposed to help him clear his mind and help him decide what path he should eventually take, he was planning on bidding Dark Paradise goodbye. And he could, he was so close to doing it. All he had to do was not return there. It wasnât like heâd signed a pact eternally bounding him to this place. But he was too accustomed to the club, no matter how sick it was making him feel sometimes.
Writing was his prominent passion and something he felt genuinely decent at. Pursing that very career didnât work out exactly as he wished to. With two volumes of poems under his belt and countless drafts rotting in his drawers, again he was standing still. A breath of fresh air wouldâve been greatly appreciated.
It was hard not to hear of PJJ, especially with his best friend working under their roof. Junhoeâs little dream was to ever publish anything there, so he decided to do it. To step out of his comfort zone.
He brought his portfolio and rampant nerves. Thankfully, his anxious state didnât win out over him when it finally came to facing the people from the management, who were supposed to have the first talk with him. It wasnât much of an interview. More like him fidgeting in his seat, rather due to excitement, and rambling on. He needed to restrain himself from breaking into a praising monologue about the company. The last thing he wanted to be seen as was a maniac.
They would contact him. They said they would contact him. Isnât it what they always say? Nonetheless, for once Junhoe was proud of himself. Even if they ended up politely turning him down, it still would be a personal achievement.
He didnât storm out of the building so quickly. He was walking around the hallways in childlike daze, as if he had stepped into one of those fantasy worlds he was earnestly reading about when he was a kid.
Poof. His dark brows shot upwards and his lips immediately parted to utter an exaggerated apology when he felt the bump. Such occurrences were nothing surprising, really; he was surprised how his frequent absentmindedness hadnât made him accidentally bump into a rushing vehicle yet. âOh-uh--â he muttered, his grip nervously tightening on the file he was holding and when his eyes met the otherâs, his embarrassment dispersed and was promptly replaced by a broad grin. The grin reserved for the special ones. âSammy!â Junhoe exclaimed in glee, perhaps a tad too loudly. But he couldnât help himself. Sammy had this secret power of shooing away his default grumpiness and settling down his nervous system solely by being around. It had been like that ever since he could remember, and even years later he couldnât explain why. He gifted the man with a firm pat on his shoulder. âWho wouldâve thought... What have you been up to?â
















