Mountains @ My Back

I don’t really know where I’m going with this but boy has life taught me some shit. It’s interesting, I never really thought that I’d be where I am today. I always thought that as much as  I dreamed to be on the other side of the country, it was just that-- a dream. But, here I am, being an adult. LOVING my job and I couldn’t be more fortunate to have gotten here so early in life. I know that having done so will help me to grow as a person in more ways than one. As much as I miss being away from my mom and the rest of my family, there’s something about just doing it on my own that has a remarkable feeling of both satisfaction and happiness. And to add to that, I have a new outlook on myself after my previous, and most serious, relationship. As much as I miss him, as angry as I can sometimes get that it’s over.....I wouldn’t take any of it back. I’m totally heartbroken over him and I can’t seem to get away from that. BUT, life has been so good to me since. Because of him I know what I want. Because of him I know what it’s like to be in love. Because of him I have the best dog in the fucking world. Because of him I am where I want to be. There is SO much good that came from him but I often get lost in the heartbreak of it all, which then causes me to pick apart pieces of us that were entirely human. I don’t know what happened in this post but I’ve been needing to write for a loooong time, so there’s my word vomit for now. Taking the tiny steps to get back to that part of me that has always been there, that part of me that loves to write.