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Hi! I have a few questions about your post, I hope I'm not bothering you 🫶
"There is nothing to analyze, to get involved in, or to fix when you remain conscious." What do you mean by "remain conscious"? Any examples?
"Consciousness is what you are. Be conscious of it." I don't understand 😭
"So remain conscious only of consciousness itself." And this is what confuses me the most,how do you do it?
you’re doing it now boo. are u aware? who is confused? are u perceiving this confusion?
wtf are u doing when only now exists?
Please post your perspective on shifting asap!! I'll take any help I can get.
okay the draft is being prepared neowww.
thoughts are meaningless.
beliefs are meaningless.
assumptions are meaningless.
feelings are meaningless.
a subconscious is meaningless.
identity is meaningless.
time is meaningless.
everything outside of nothing is meaningless.
all these things are perceived, they aren’t you.
what are you?

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https://www.tumblr.com/1dreamdoll/820022238308909056/hey-ive-been-reading-a-lot-of-non-dualism-posts?source=share
I also had the same problem, I was really confused to say the least. the answer is: there is no "I", only thoughts playing as I.
If you were to truly ask yourself, "who am I?". You would find that you have no sense of self, therefore there is no I. Just thoughts that carry the narrative.
All that is left are thoughts that appear due to Awareness, you are always awareness.
exactly !
hey dolls, in the middle of my meditation/self inquiry session, i had some realizations to these specific questions and i had to pause to share them with you all.
is it the body that is aware?
is it the mind that is aware?
what IS aware?
is the mind, body, identity, emotions, ‘my’ past, ‘my’ story, mine? or are they just thoughts and ideas arising in this moment? in the same field of awareness? what are they arising in?
if there’s a perception of these things, of (your name), what am i? am i always this? am i always aware? am i this when thoughts, identity, emotions, etc arise again? is the awareness of these things not always present?
that’s it for now. remember that’s these aren’t to be answered with your mind since it is just another thought. don’t rush this, let the answer present itself to you.
me when i realize i am just awareness choosing my experience again:
hey bbys, yal active?
i will be posting every now & then!! i am kind of restarting my journey rn?? idk. but, with experiencing & everything, i don’t wanna delete this acct bc i still like to talk abt nd, i will just be posting VERY slowly. hopefully, ill make blogging on here apart of my night routine soon. there are 2 topics i want to touch on: my perception on shifting & imagination. idk when but i really want to post abt my perception on shifting bc i think it can help others a lot! i’ve grown out of shifting a little but i still think it can help others. also, idk i feel like i have to say this, but my old posts (which seem to still be going strong) will stay up, even tho i don’t agree with them anymore, it seems like they are helping others. okay it’s late so that’s all for now, rmb to rest as the ‘i am.’
Hey I've been reading a lot of non dualism posts but I don't get one thing. How do I differentiate between ego and the self? The self can't think, that means every time I think I am self, or I have everything, or I'm perfect and everything is perfect it's just my ego. But then if the ego is saying that it's awareness then it's egoistic. Everyone says there's nothing to do and to be happy in the present moment because awareness has everything, but then what is there for the ego to do? Does it have to think it's perfect and has all the desires? I don't get it. Some say that everything is an experience for the awareness so even imagining what the ego wants is experiencing it in reality. Done, I imagined it. Now I know I've experienced it. If I persist in this knowing that I've experienced it, will it also show up in the reality outside of the ego? I know that's not the goal because we already have everything and one should not care about the desire showing up. It's like non dualism is just being interpreted differently by everyone. One post said that to "manifest" anything, you must be aware of the ego who has it. So for ex if the ego wanted to be skinny, the ego has to act like it's already skinny and not act like it lacks anything?
It's soo confusing, I don't know why everyone can't be in the same boat. I just want my ego to have everything it desires, yet everything on here is so confusing. What does the ego even need to do and how does one even not think they're the ego when everything I think of is just the ego's doing 😭
ik im late & it’s a lot to unpack here but it’s simple: mind is limitation. every thought is a limitation. u don’t have to differentiate between the two in anyway bc they aren’t separate, just realize that its perceived so it isn’t u. let the ego go, the thoughts don’t matter or do anything. awareness is everything. everything is u. just be. & no, the ego doesn’t need or have to do anything, leave it alone. you’re still taking your self to be ego, which is still perceiving everything as separate. there is no reality outside (including the ego), there is only you. being = direct experience. no shade, it seems like you’re confused and need to stick to a reliable source. i wouldn’t trust most nd blogs nowadays bc they are just loass blogs thinking they are “teaching” nd. a lot of what u said seemed to be a bunch of loass & separation & confusion. the ego doesn’t need to do anything. u just need to stop mistaking it to be you. the ego is just a thing u add to the ‘i am.’
little side note: a good reliable source would be 4dBarbie’s backup/archive & the books listed in her drive. some personal faves of mine are: ‘i am that’ by nisargadtta maharaj & silence of the heart by robert adam’s (not listed)!

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hey bbys, yal active?
You are Dreaming
You are fighting shadows. You are wasting your time.
You are nothing, have nothing, can do nothing. Yet all comes out of you — the source is you; the root, the origin is you.
Everything you see and experience is only a mental condition, a dream-like state, easy to dispel by questioning its reality. It's you imagining it as real and fighting it with all your might that keeps it alive.
Both sleep and waking are imagined. In the waking state the world emerges because you are conscious of there being one. We are only dreaming. We dream that we are awake, we dream that we are asleep. Treat everything as such and be liberated. As long as you give reality to dreams, you are their slave. By imagining that you are born as so-and-so, you become a slave to the so-and-so. In this dream you imagine yourself to be a process, to have past and future, to have history. In fact, we have no history, we are not a process, we do not develop, nor decay; see all as a dream and stay out of it.
While it lasts, the dream has temporary being. It is your own desire to hold on to it that creates the problem. Let go. Stop imagining that the dream is yours.
"When you see your dream as dream, you wake up. But in your dream itself I am not interested. Enough for me to know that you must wake up. You need not bring your dream to a definite conclusion, or make it noble, or happy, or beautiful; all you need is to realise that you are dreaming. Stop imagining, stop believing. See the contradictions, the incongruities, the falsehood and the sorrow of the human state, the need to go beyond. Within the immensity of space floats a tiny atom of consciousness and in it the entire universe is contained." - Nisargadatta Maharaj
All depends on you. It is by your consent that the world exists. Withdraw your belief in its reality and it will dissolve like a dream.
As you cannot separate the dream from yourself, so you cannot have an outer world independent of yourself. You are independent, not the world. Don’t be afraid of a world you yourself have created. Cease from looking for happiness and reality in a dream and you will wake up.
I have something to share. I debated making a throwaway or just sending it to one of 4dbarbie's backups but I settled on this because I just was too impatient to share
---Backstory: I've been patiently applying all that I've learned from 4dbarbie's asks and letting go of chunks of the ego mind---
Today, while at the beach with my group of friends, I realized that I was still somewhat stuck. I let go of big parts of what "I" thought I knew, but I still felt like I was missing something to have my realization. If you ask why I was thinking about that at the beach, there has been nothing on my mind aside from realizing my self since I discovered it. Nothing interested me more than this.
---Disclaimer because I'm sure I was only able to do this because of how free my mind was and what is now cannot be compared to the way my brain worked months ago---
So you can have a mental picture, we were all on the beach, some of us, mostly the girls, were sat on our towels. Conversation was going on around me and I was nodding but my mind was elsewhere. I was thinking what could I do to prove it to myself not only that I understood but that I can apply it.
So while on the beach, I was thinking... what seemingly impossible thing could I do to prove I can do it. Gee, an appearance change in the moment, that's pretty "hard", isn't it? So I decided on that. I didn't want to be something small like change my hair color, but completely change my face so that I can show I can. If I couldn't, so be it, I would continue disbelieving I was this character until I felt even freer. But I still wanted to try.
Because I am not fully realized so I still had some resistance, I thought- what would my ego have the least resistance me looking like? I was looking around the people at the beach trying to pick someone I had no desire to look like, but also no fear of being that person.
---- Backstory again: my original body had bleached blonde hair, tan skin and green eyes-----
So I picked a brunette, pale and with brown eyes. I thought in my head for what a cute brunette would look like, then I leaned back on my towel, closed my eyes and imagined being IT for a few seconds. Again, I didn't care if I succeeded, I just did it.
I didn't sit long like this, after I saw myself looking like that, I sat up again and looked at my reflection in my phone.
I looked exactly like I saw in my head.
I swear to God, I was so panicked- my heart was beating wildly in my chest. I was freaking out so bad internally. I could believe it and couldn't. You know when something shocking happens that ego just can't accept? Yeah, it was like that.
Then, I looked at my friends to see if they would notice any change. I called out to one of my guy friends (who was standing up) to pass me the water so that I could bring attention to myself. He gave it to me no problem, the girls turned to me too when I spoke up and nobody said a thing. I was scared to ask. What was I even supposed to ask? I felt like my mind was breaking.
I stood like that for minutes and nobody said a thing to me about looking different. I'll be honest I was really spooked, my heart was still racing. So I decided to go back to my "original" appearance to see if they say something then.
---The process was the same---
When I stood up this time I did it more confidently, because I didn't feel like I would be caught doing something crazy since everybody knew me as this body. I changed "back" no issue, and nobody said anything. AGAIN. This time I dared ask if I they think I changed somewhat, and they all looked like me like ? what do you mean?
My heart was beating again but in a different way. In euphoria, in joy. I still felt like my brain was completely broken but i was so happy I felt like I could fly.
My next instinct was to imagine myself with what used to be my "desired" appearance, I felt like I just gained a superpower I could lose so I had to do everything quickly, before it goes away.
There was no resistance now that I did it once, none at all. I was aware of no impossibility of changing.
We spent two more hours there and I felt more alive in my new body than ever. It was like the whole world opened to me.
On the way home, while I was in the car (one of the guys was driving) I felt like I now had the time and opportunity to imagine again. I was relaxed, and just daydreaming, but in the present. Just imagining myself with everything I wanted with no expectation.
...and they all came extremely quickly. They didn't spawn but some I got in the most bizarre of ways, Ways in which my ego could have never thought of receiving them. And everything I imagined happened until the end of the day. It's night now when I'm writing this and I'm getting ready to sleep, thinking of things to "wake up to".
Now I know a lot of people aren't going to believe me, but that is really not my problem. I am still processing it myself to be honest. I don't even know how to go forward with all this "power".
Anyway, you truly imagine everything and everything is in your mind. Including other people. No one exists without you, including the body.
I already have an idea for what to do tomorrow and it's to try and be invisible.
I'm thinking of what else could be really important to say so others can also do it... the lack of doubts? Or me not thinking of it being impossible rather? Having it in the back of my head always that the only real thing is ME? Everything I learned I learned from the 4dbarbie account, I didn't read any books because I don't like reading.
Lastly, just try without expectations of it not working. Accept it could not but still do it, if it doesn't now it may in the future, all depending on your ability to let of of the reality of the body and seeing your real Self.
I think that's it, PEACE OUT :)
Finally posting this one as well... sorry I left you hanging for so long 😭😭😭
Wish you well!! Continue to have fun in the dream ♡
Woohoo this story is awesome. Also love that you didn't read the books cos I kinda made myself earlier in the week until I realised that if you read all of 4dbarbie's content seriously, you most likely wouldn't need to 😆 it just felt like overconsumption to me. and also 4dbarbie was so focused on the practical side of applying too compared to the books (so you don't need to read the books but if you've read all of her posts & asks and still have questions, then do a search in the books) Man I miss her 🥹
We work the world miraculously just by eliminating time, effecting things instantaneously. Cease believing in anything as existing outside of yourself. If you said so, then it is so. That's all you need to accept and then there are no more thoughts and no more doubts. "Don't discuss it with anyone, not even Self. Simply believe it to be so." - Neville Goddard 1
Your story made me think of this excerpt from one of Ada's deleted posts. There was another blogger that believed Neville was teaching non-duality with a focus on law of consciousness/materialisation (can't remember the wording) and I could see that 🤔
Summary of key takeaways from anon:
I've been patiently applying all that I've learned from 4dbarbie's asks and letting go of chunks of the ego mind
I'm sure I was only able to do this because of how free my mind was and what is now cannot be compared to the way my brain worked months ago
Just imagining myself with everything I wanted with no expectation
Lastly, just try without expectations of it not working. Accept it could not but still do it, if it doesn't now it may in the future, all depending on your ability to let of the reality of the body and seeing your real Self
It really is important to be patient with ourselves during this journey! Time is a created concept too but while not fully identified with the Self yet, the ego needs to understand that patience is necessary while it is letting go of imaginary concepts to realize Self, how long it will take will vary but just keep applying consistently and patiently and you (Vanessas) will get there too!
Be patient with yourself because you don't lose any time, just get to that place I'm telling you about and then you can just go back in time if you so wish. All worry is pointless! And there is nothing to fear, things just happen, do not claim them as yours for a while. Unclutter your mind, it becomes your servant after you've freed it enough. 2
Thanks for sharing your story anon! Feel free to give us another update on your dream adventures (how did the invisibility test go?)!
hiii omg am i glad that you’ve turned on your asks again!! i hope you aren’t feeling too overwhelmed with this blog/asks, you’re doing such a wonderful job!!
i’m this anon, btw :) https://www.tumblr.com/adadisciple/724563337217736704/hi-im-this-anon
i’ve got some more “success’s”!! as i stated in my last ask, i could potentially have some brain damage- but that’s only “true” if i identify with it. anywaysss, my memory isn’t the best so i wrote down a list of sorts, and conducted a little “experiment”.
before i did that however, i was able to get my desired body!! i also cleared up my skin, which took a turn after the whole cancer thing. i don’t want to get into details, but since the cancer affected my lymph nodes- it made it’s way to my skin, which “manifested” in hyper pigmentation , rashes, scabs, etc. it was just horrible. even after the cancer was “healed”, i was left with scarring on my skin- and tbh it just looked horrible. i didn’t really feel confident to wear shorts outside anymore. tbh, i wasn’t really attached to this body or it’s skin, so i decided to change it for funsies. i remembered who i truly was- Self. i just decided i had my desired body- kinda imagined it but just once- and that my skin was clear. i let it go, tbh i think that was the only time i thought about it till the next day, when my skin was literally so clear.
all the dark spots and problems seemed to disappear overnight, i even had some scabs that went away. i also lost my ability to rlly eat- or want to eat during the cancer period, so i kinda lost my natural shape. the same day my skin changed, my body reverted to how i wanted it to be. afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.” for example, with my skin, i didn’t think of how horrible all the scabs looked, i didn’t even think about how clear it was. i just knew, and it was normalized.
regarding the experiment, i made a list of things i wanted to occur- but wrote down how i did it- or what steps i took. i did 4:
receiving a text
getting a hug (tbh random lol but i love hugs)
revising the house i live in ac being always cold, and set to 73.
and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!
they all worked- and i wrote on my notebook that they would occur before the day was over. for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because i knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my characters actions could hinder me. the hug and ac happened before i went to sleep. for the text and asks, it happened today. there’s no use in making sense of it- but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference. but when you know yourSelf to be Self- there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.
i feel as if i am a child again, im always giddy when i marvel at my true Self. it’s so amazing, and a complete total 180 or even 360 from when i first sent my ask to Lain. I even got into the void last night, completely aware of it, and was able to affirm for some things! I kept “waking up” in it, throughout the night. I genuinely have no worries anymore, and it’s so refreshing that I am in tears typing this. I know you must be overworked between this blog, and just the everyday forces of life- but truly it is people/blogs like you, who help others completely turn their lives around!! Thank you so much, all of your kindness, and aid will surely be returned tenfold <3
WOOWAA SO HAPPY TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN!!
@lains-reality your anon!!
Ahh I wish this would be the only thing my asks ever saw :')) life is truly this wonderful and easy ♡
"and then.. for you to have your asks on again!!"
Not you controlling Sofia like a puppet, this is really your world fr 😌
Jokes aside, you can see we really are all one.
Key points from their process for everyone:
afterwards, i realized how little i thought of what i used to be insecure about- when i had the “desirable.”
i just knew, and it was normalized.
for the hug and ac, i wrote how it was ok for me to seek, think, worry, or obsess over it- because I knew mySelf to be Self- and none of my character's actions could hinder me.
but to be a hypocrite, i would think they happened the next day because i felt it was essential to feel indifference.
but when you know yourSelf to be Self - there really isn’t any essential steps to take, or anything that can stop you.
Thank you for coming back to us, you're so sweet for helping others by documenting as well ♡
Amazing!!! Thank you anon for giving us another update 🥰 see part 1 if you haven't
Anon gave another update!
4dbarbie highlights: Stop fighting the dream
Your character has no free will. All happens because it happens, you (the person) can't control it. You might argue you do because you chose what to eat this morning, but these little decisions mean nothing - if the ingredients weren't in your fridge, you wouldn't have had the choice either. The waking state is no different from dreams, first you need courage to start, then you gain confidence in what you find. Let all happen to you, try to control nothing, stop fighting the dream - just let go of your fear. Detach. You are here again because you wanted to experience everything, this is the lifetime in which it happens. Only you have to give up thinking you are the body. Then the mind and its thoughts, because you aren't those either. I know there are obligations, but start asking yourself questions until you stop believing in anything but your being, after all, that is the only thing you know for certain. You think you are this little speck, but it is the opposite, all the specks are because you are. Your mother is you, your father is you, I am you and your body is you, and so is the world - you are the whole of the dream. Sooner or later, you will arrive at the same conclusion. You can't stop being what you are (Self), all else can stop existing, but you can't. The only thing you have a choice in is delaying seeing it by thinking you are this or that. Only by letting go of all do you gain everything. Only see it, then you can imagine whatever you want and it will be.
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being.
what is being?
being is awareness.
when you’re identifying as source/awareness or whatever u like to call it. all of it is a coin either way no matter what side it’s flipped on. then you’re ALL. current identity, new identity, all of it.
identify as source isn’t an action it’s just identification simply ceasing to exist.
there is no ego to destroy or drop. only misattribution, the ego is just an expression within awareness.
misattribution: misidentification, wrongly assigning a cause, creator, source.
the current identity and new identity are both appearances & experiences in you. all of it exists because you do.
so the current identity and new identity are appearances not containers.
everything is an undivided experience. nothing exists outside of awareness. outside is a concept.
u experience directly because only now appears. time is a story inside the now.
so to sum ts up:
when identification collapses, there’s no HIERARCHY. no ego, higher self, desired self, none of it. just undivided appearing.
being isn’t a state felt by someone.
being IS fullness; nothing excluded. when being there is all that appears, appearing, without separation.
this session is now concluded…
EXPERIENCE 🌊🌪️🌌
Experience is not linear, and every moment is COMPLETELY unrelated to the last
There really should be no more questions on physical vs imagination, how to experience something... but that still seems to be a topic of discussion soo here's another explanation
This is what you THINK is happening:
I am a person who seemingly went to sleep, then I had a dream of being a Space Cowboy and all the alien ladies loved me. Then I seemingly woke up in the same life as before and I went to use the bathroom, then daydreamed about being an A-List celebrity, then I went to eat breakfast, then I thought about how cool of an idea it would be for me to start a business... It goes on and on
But this is the incorrect way of describing it, and leads to misidentification ❌
See all of this categorization and seperation? Now THIS is what we're pointing to 👇🏾👇🏾👇🏾
"I" seemingly went to sleep, "I" was a space cowboy whom all the alien ladies loved, "I" seemingly woke up to use the restroom, "I" was an A-List celebrity, "I" ate breakfast, "I" started my own business
See how these are all events that "I" experienced back to back, because Awareness DOES NOT DISCRIMINATE. Experience is experience. Period.
"But how do I experience in this world with the senses?" Reread this post over and over and then REALLY ponder on what this means. I promise you it's simple