19thvirus

I know i'll pass, it's not like the school or teachers seem to care what I bring as long as it's half decent... but other friends of mine in different mayors put so much effort into their masters and actually have something they could be proud of, or have put in the effort to proudly say it's their master thesis... and in it all I just feel inferior... because regardless of how there was a lack of guidance with teachers on my side... they managed to prove themselves again as actually smart and someone who can think critically and plan ahead and I've proven again that i'm impulsive, don't properly finish what I start, complain and talk more then actually giving any interesting insights... and at the end of the day, though I know these things don't determine my worth, I do still feel worthless... more of an entertaining fool then an equal you can engage with

I almost cried twice while writing my mentor a mail explaining how i'm barely surviving my master thesis due to my own shortcomings, even though the school and he failed me first... not that i'm blameless, but feels like i'm the only one who seems to be suffering any consequences

Thought a blog would be cool to try... but we'll see.... something to type to the void for now