sv

you were just like the rest.

my family always knows when something happens in my life.

i’m always okay the next day.

i think it takes me back to when i was younger in my uncles room, music blasting, wrapped up in a blanket, just singing and cuddling.

i think it’s comforting to feel the words and cry. it’s nice to feel those emotions and let it all out.

may this new moon bring so many things! i have been enjoying life. i have been trying things differently and it all feels so much more exciting. i hope that this new moon, this new season of life brings you all the best. you will get blessed in so many ways, you’ll see in due time. if it gets hard, remember you will make it through! always speak up for yourself.

it can be hard to “lose” control but we don’t have any control in the first place. we deal with what life throws at us and how we deal with it effects how we live it. we should try to be nice to ourselves about things.

i also have a bag of little things like lashes, face mask, body wash, croc charms, pins, a bracelet making kit, some fruit snacks AND fruity pebbles rice krispy treats lol. i am giving that away too.

i did my laundry, organized my closet (room closet), took out all my winter clothes, put it into storage bins and put my summer clothes into my closet :)

i know that with astrology it’s nice to just look at it. when it plays out, it just makes me 😊. i don’t know too much about astrology but i think i know a good amount because i have met so many different kinds of people.

all signs. all different types. water moon, fire moon, earth mercury, fire venus, sooo many different charts!

i pull it from the person and add it to this one but just this one aspect. it helps me understand them better. different signs (people) need different things, people have different boundaries.

with anything in life, you apply it to what you’ve learned. there is always something to learn from something. it helps your mind when you remember it in your own way.

when i think of sun being domicile in leo but exalted in aries, it makes a lot of sense.

each sign gives off a different type of energy.

leo, fixed. same as scorpio, taurus and aquarius. fixed signs are second, they keep the working going but can stop when they feel like they’re satisfied.

aries, cardinal. same as cancer, capricorn and a libra. cardinal signs are first, they make the plan and start it.

a leo, the lion. loyal, straight forward, passionate, stubborn, strong face, nice hair. you know a leo when you see one. creative and can lack independence.

though some astrologers might not think “sister signs” are important, i think they are when trying to learn the signs and their “archetypes”. the polarity between them helps you see what that sign can be capable of.

aquarius, water barer. intelligent, innovative, independent. ruled by saturn and neptune. the polarity between them doesn’t mean leo doesn’t have these traits but that they are something that needs to be learned and consistent.

aries, ram. assertive, determined, vocal, driven. ruled by mars. an aries shines but not in a “flashy” way like how leo is. don’t be fooled though, an aries can be “flashy” too. like every sign, we all have our issues since aries is ruled by mars; this person can be passionate, or even aggressive. aries will end up growing up.

aries being exalted makes sense to me because what leo lacks to do, aries can do so easily.

all people change and evolve. we see more traits in ourselves over time. astrology shows us this with our charts. i like to believe that we’re gonna get better as we get older.

i want to clear out my camera roll because i have so many pictures and i don’t need like half of them.

i started working out on march 31st. i have been working out every monday, wednesday and friday.

monday and tuesday is arms, back and legs. not the same arm workout each day but the same legs workout. on friday, i do core, abs and legs. on tuesdays and thursdays, i try to walk. (i want to walk every day)

with eating, i don’t eat a lot so i have been trying to eat more. i already don’t really eat unhealthy. i eat at home most of the time and make my own food but i do have time periods where i eat a lot of outside food (because i get lazy, when im ab to get my period). i’ll mostly get breakfast food and sometimes ill get lunch during the week. 1-2 days during the week.

i work a 8-5 lol. i be lazy and tired but im trying to get better. little by little :3 at least im doing it, that’s all that matters!

i have been on a weird run of finishing every show i watch. i haven’t been able to do this in so long so i am taking advantage and watching everything i can.

i deleted instagram off my phone. when i have it on my phone, i have it hidden so i don’t go on it unless i think about going on it. i found myself on reels for long periods of time when i would want to do something so it’s gone!

i haven’t been writing. i’m doing my lists but no writing. im glad that im writing this. this always helps tbh. i barely go on this app now since my original account got deleted but maybe ill get back into it.

im almost done :3

i worked out today

it was nice! i should’ve stretched but i feel good :)

tomorrow, i will do yoga or a 30 minute stretch.

i refilled my vitamins and washed my hair.

drank some tea before bed.

i hope that with me doing this, i can become someone better, someone different. i haven’t been liking the person i’ve been becoming and i need to make a change.

i feel like there’s no old me to come back to. i just have to rebuild and become a safe space for myself all over again.

i’ve been really mean to myself.

let’s see what awaits in my journey.