so my arms are aching. i spent all day assembling a drawer and a utility cart and organizing my items to their respective places and it's only convinced me more that i NEED to buy pain relief patches soon

just got to my indekost and i legitimately can't get sad because i'm EXHAUSTED. i left home around 9 am and arrived at 9 pm. 12 hours of transportation. then i ate (i was running on an empty stomach prior) before cleaning my room and mopping the floors. lots of chores i haven't done but i'll do it tomorrow whatever.....

i've been going out with my friends at my hometown for two consecutive days just hanging out and coming home midnight because i'm leaving for uni tomorrow :(

i just realized maybe the reason why i get so exhausted whenever i socialize is because i'm really sensitive to other people's changes in tone and body language since i watch out for social cues all the time and i would adjust my demeanor and shift the conversation to lighten up their mood and i've been training myself to do this since i was little because whenever my mom gets in a bad mood she'd give me the silent treatment all the while expecting little me to understand her wants and needs based on passive aggressive nonverbal cues which, if i inquire further, would get me in more trouble. she won't admit to this but it's stuck with me for better and for worse

some people genuinely believe we're here to marry and reproduce and die. sometimes i wonder why they get so upset and agitated whenever i say i don't want to marry or have children. it doesn't affect them in any way. plus their arguments are either 'it's God's will' or 'who's going to take care of you when you're older?' which amuses me, because really, neither is any of their business. my relationship with God is very personal and why should it matter to them if no one will take care of ME when i'm older? i know most of the time it's likely that they're merely envious because not marrying and not having children had never been a choice for them to make, but i still find it silly that they think they have the right to meddle in my business and that it's necessary that i listen to them

i need a good tagging system for my ao3 bookmarks i just think i haven't clicked with any organization system yet

only three more days until i move out for real and suddenly i'm REALLY nervous..... i feel sick to my stomach

since summer's in full swing and the heat's getting to me i decided to pick up a summer read from ao3 since i've been reading a looooot of fanfiction!!! read buried treasure by starmapz and i think that's exactly how i'd describe this fic: a buried treasure :) it was so cute?? gojo was the perfect balance of annoying and sweet

need more books with EXACTLY the same vibe as carley fortune's one golden summer. i should probably read the first book in the duology but eh

i'm gonna sleep it off because i need to wake up early tomorrow but i believe in miracles. watch spain win 1-0

i bought black nail polish but i forgot how to apply it so now my nails look really messy and i'm feeling very brooklynbloodpop masquerade penelope scott 2020 alt grunge if you know what i mean

alsoooo happy to have finished a book after a while!!! i spent 6 months without reading a book can you bemieve it..... after my eight-month reading streak in 2025..... in my defense i've been getting back into my other hobbies ever since i got into a reading slump because of a certain murder mystery book by a certain russian author..... the more i love humanity in general the less i love people in particular.....

GUESS WHO JUST READ RAZORBLADE TEARS! it was a bit hard to get into because i'm unfamiliar with street terms and the slangs they use, but hey, i learnt stuff and got some insight. cosby was pretty graphic about violence, really makes you think how bizarre it is that people romanticize gangs and violence in a lot of modern romance books (how did that even start? i'm curious now). sometimes it feels too casual, maybe it's because there's no second amendment in my motherland, meaning we don't regularly see or talk about guns (...there was a lot of stuff about gun and bullets that i didn't get in this book) and i know the main characters are literally excons, but still!!! it got pretty frustrating at times but they picked up the pacing near the end. i really enjoyed how ike and buddy's relationship developed over time. ike's relationship with everybody, actually. with his wife, his granddaughter, the queer community. his character development was great :)

picked up secret lady again and immediately remembered why i paused it. my gosh the politics in this manhwa is HEAVY i'm malfunctioning due to information overload