there's lead in the water!!!

whats it called when your fetishes are lowkey the onyly thing keeping you alive

I am going to see baseball in less than a week and I am a real person who is having weird recurring dreams that dont mean anything about me morally and its ok that i havent been able to stop them and I am having a good time and i am having an okay time and im going to learn and I'm going to enjoy people and I'm going to enjoy music and I'm going to enjoy more things in the future even if I soemtimes and often feel like I am walking without blood in my body and I'm not going to comstantly worry about developing diabetes and starve even though every food i see in my@house is revolting because no one ever said that i specifically was about to develop disbetes and im not going to hurt mysefl over nothing but i will and oh god will i cry and cry and i just want to feel awake at a normal time and keep myself healthy and normal and i just want salvation and a gun

I want to lovingly brush someones teeth

i keep having this recurring dream theme that seems to be for Nap dreams EXCLUSIVELY and it is that i am making out with a dead body and it's lowkey alwas really nice until i actually wake up and i gotta face myself

life and having a job is seriously so stupid but i want a job too which is disgusitng and i cant believe th world would make me feel liek this

I can never sleep friday night becasue i get off work at 930 PM and have to go to work on saturday at 830 am and i think about working tomorrow all night and so I have to drink a lot to have any hope of fallign asleep on friday. and it is expensive. and kidn of awful. and i should be able to make it a business expense. I am having a juice box to wash down the taste but the straw got lost so im just squeezing it into my mouth I feel barbaric

at work after we emptied the garbage bins and all that we were counting the tills and i got a nosebleed (typical of me!!!!!!!!!!!) and my coworker was like here. put this tampon in your nose. and so i did and now the only thing in the garbage bin by the till is a tampon wrapper and applicator and it is very visible. When my boss opens tomorrow I wonder if it will confuse her very much. her part-time workers be tamponing up front dgaf