𝑏𝑢𝑛𝑖 ♡

something about your f/o cleaning you up after you relapsed... there's no judgement in their eyes, just a gentle look as they place some bandages over the wounds. They pull you close once they're done, rocking you back and forth as they whisper comforting words to you, reminding you that they love you, flaws and all, and that they'll fix you up whenever you need them too. they make your favorite meal that night, and they give you an extra little kiss before bed. even then, they dont let you go, falling asleep with your face in their mind...

I thought about doing a reflection on my loa journey, so I'm sharing it with you all!

Immediately contradicting myself the moment I don't "see" my desires - I'd affirm a couple of times or even for 10 minutes but then be like "Why isn't it here???"

Be in waiting mode - Even if I affirmed that I had something right now, I'd still have the belief deep down that it'd take time for me to "see" it

Relying on external validation - We've all been there. I'd think like I had my desires in the moment but would start to internally freak out over not "seeing" them with my own eyes

Searching for new methods/a "secret key" - I would use a method for like 2 weeks or something, give up because I assumed it wasn't working, then look for something new as if I didn't have all the power!

Think that the more I affirm, the faster my desires will come - I was one of those people who thought more effort = better results. Obviously, that's not true since it's simply your dominant thoughts that manifest, not the methods, so I sometimes needlessly exhausted myself

Restarting over and over - I previously made a post about this you can find in my second masterlist. I'd tell myself "This is the last time", only to do it again a few months later

Affirming to "get" instead of to "remind" - I'd affirm while thinking "If I do this, I'll get that" instead of accepting that I already had it the moment I said I did!

Comparing myself to other people - Honestly, this might be the worst thing I've done. I'd read success stories of people who got their dream lives in less than a month or even overnight and feel insecure, thinking that I was doing something wrong because I didn't "see" mine.

although, it is quite entertaining to think about the association between a neutral stimulus, like the jingling of a small bell attached to a collar, and a... conditioned response.

perhaps one day, the sound of the bell alone will draw you to my feet, automatically in position to beg and whine, and your cunt dripping in anticipation for my attention.