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happy two year anniversary to the series that permanently altered my brain chemistry

My problem is that I just can't get into watching streams and I don't care to watch 8-hour vods because I have a job and hobbies that I would like to do so it puts me in a spot where I have no idea what the fuck half of my dash is talking about. at some point I am forced to believe that you guys are making people up and lying publicly for entertainment

Being a creative with adhd is so weird because you want to make things so badly but your brain is just refusing to, so you’re just stuck there replaying the exact scene or piece of dialogue or drawing or cinematic shot in your mind while not actually being able to do anything. But at the same time the adhd is actively giving you unique creative experiences and ideas and it feels like a fundamental part of you as an artist. It’s such an interesting dichotomy of feeling the thing that you want to make so strongly and wanting nothing more than to just pour it all out but also being completely unable to do it, and that coming from the same source. But then also you have to live through said dichotomy and it just becomes completely and overwhelmingly exhausting.

ADHDepression be like